(Zankie fanfic) Steaming nights..but with who?

Ch.21 I lost him..

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Frankie pov.

It's been about 2 weeks since Zach showed me his weeding gift to me.I sill think it was the sweetest think he could have given me.I really needed it to prove that we will get threw this crazy world..together.Zach ran out with one of his old Friends from collage to go get some lunch.Ari and I where sitting at the kitchen table looking threw pages,and pages,and PAGES of weeding book's.Cake books,color books,Theme book's.Lot's of books.I read a lot but this made my want to pull my hair out.The phone rang and Ari said she would get it."Yes I know Zach Rance."She said.It peaked my curiosity so I looked at her.She covered her mouth with her hand.Tears started to fall from her check on to her shirt.I stood up."Ari what's going on!"I asked.She just stood their Frozen,she dropped the phone.I walked over two her.and she was shaking with one hand covering her mouth and the other holding her shoulder."Ari what happened to Zach."I asked her very calmly."We haft to go...we got to go."She yelled, and rushed to grab her keys."Ari! What happened?"I finally yelled.She stopped instantly."Zach and his friend got in a car reck..."She started to tear up."And...one of them didn't make it off the table they bleed out and they don't know witch one."She was now in tears.my mouth dropped and I just shook my head no."The other one..is in critical condition...they need us to go identify the body..."She finally finished."How do they know it was Zach."I asked in denial."They found his liens at the sight."I wanted to break down,I wanted to pretend it was over,but my body demanded that we go.We got into the car and drove like crazy to the hospital.We ran up to the 3rd floor where the ICU was.We ran to the desk,and explained what happened.They took us to the room.That room number will forever be imprinted in my head ROOM 331."Ari I cant...I can't if that's not Zach..I can't."I tried to explain,she under stood she opened the door and walked in.There was a thin crack in the blinds,so I peeked in.Ari walked over to the side of the bed,she started to cry,she kneeled down by the bed.I knew it wasn't Zach in that bed.I knew I lost him.I couldn't handle that,I ran into the bathroom down the hall.I leaned up against the door and broke down.I can't live with out him.I lost my BestFriend,my Fiancé,a part of me,my world.. all at once.I can't do this anymore.I can't live with out him.I stood up and leaned against the sink.I took the soap dispenser and broke the mirror.I took a piece of the mirror and cut across my arm once.It didn't help..it always helped a little before not a lot but it took my mind of thinks.I slid it across my arm again...Nothing..Why isn't it helping?The lost was to great to bare I could always match the pain I felt before,but not this time...it was to much...I.Lost.Him.The only one I truly trusted,the only one who could make me feel safe.I can't bare this anymore.I have been screaming help deep down for to long.Pushing my emotions down always trying to feel nothing..so something couldn't hurt me.I never opened up I couldn't open or fall in love the thought of being hurt scared me more then anything.Then I meet him and I knew with out him I would only be haft of myself.I know I should of done something to help me,I always joked around about it,but thats when I had Zach to talk to.Now I have nothing..Im nothing..I looked down at the glass I held in my hand with blood dripping down it.I planed it out perfectly in the time I Had,no note,They think I was fine,they would never see it coming,they would all think it was 100% about Zach.The old scars would go undetected.I took the glass and held it at the bend in my arm.I looked up at the sky.Ill see you soon bae.I slowly took the glass and slid it down my arm.I hit the floor.This was it.I felt nothing anymore,no pain,no sorrow,just peace.It was finally over.I tried for so long...I held on...no regrets is the last thing I remember say to myself as the world went dark around me.My life Flashes before me,to the time I first cut my self,the peace I felt after,but during felt nothing not pain not anything NOTHING.To the time I graduated.To the time I saw Zach,and knew I would alway love him. To the time we kiss,his proposal.Him picking us over his own flesh and blood.To him in the bathroom us seeing each other in our time of need him at his worst and me still wanting to be with him,take this journey with him.All the way to now.All in all it was a pretty good run I knew everyone would miss me,but I would miss Zach more.I would never be the same.It all went threw my head so fast.A single tear fell from my eye as my hand hit the floor and relaxed.I knew this was it.I knew..It would all be over soon.No more pain.No more trouble.Just me and Zach...Forever..I barley remember, slowly shut my eyes and whispering Zankie for life as I took one more look at my ring,and knew for the first time I was loved.I laid my head on the floor now with a pool of blood around me,knowing it wouldn't be long now.Them there was a bright light."I heard a girl scream but couldn't make out who.Then a bunch of people around me.I vaguely remember lights as I was being pushed down a hallway with people hovering over me.I saw a bright sign that said OR.Thats when it all goes black.I couldn't tell you a single thing after that all I remember is a sharp pain.I couldn't tell where it was coming from.I wanted it just to be over with.All I heard was Zach voice saying "It will be ok..we'll be together soon..Don't be afraid..it will all be over soon."I couldn't see anything but Darkness.I relaxed like Zach had told me to.I swear in my hour of need Zach proved once again that I was the lucky one two have him.I wish I could have been there for him,like he is for me.Zach was right it was all over soon.Zach voice was replaced my a sound of a monitor and doctors voices.I could make out what they said,but I heard Ari crying.I felt bad for what I did,but you can't change the past,and like I said ...no regrets.It was finally over...........So I thought anyways

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So IV been debating how to play this out and I'll just say it was difficult.No lets just say in the original one there was no...so I thought anyways........in it