(Zankie fanfic) Steaming nights..but with who?

Ch.61 Open or close

Frankie's Pov

I pulled my finger from the letter."I don't know,should we."I asked."Lets sleep on it,this is crazy.."Zach told me.We put the kids to bed,and crawled into our bed,we laid there in the dark.I laid on my back as Zach wrapped himself around my waist.I couldn't sleep,lying in the dark,with that stupid letter stuck in my head.I looked at the clock,2:30am,I huffed."Zach.."I whispered."Zach!"I whispered louder.he grunted."Zach baby,I can't sleep.I can't get that stupid letter out of my head."I whispered,he whipped his face."Sorry baby."He said in a scratch voice.he pulled himself off me,flopped on his back."Should we open it."He asked,regaining his voice."I don't know."I told him."Hold me."I added, curling up in his arms."Want to do something to take your mind of it?"He asked.I raised and eye brow and looked up at him and he had this evil smile on his face."Maybe?"I tried to asked cutely.He smiled and connected our lips.I slid on top of him as our kisses deepened.We lightly moaned into our kisses.I slid my hand up from his chest to cradle his neck.We Broke for air.I kissed him again,but all I could focus on was that stupid letter.Zach slowly broke away."Whats wrong?"He asked concerned."Its just..I can't stop thinking off that stupid letter."I told him."You just want to sleep."He asked."No baby that isn't fare to you.I got you all worked up and I can tell,just give me a minute...I'm going to go read it."I told him and he looked...surprised. "You sure it might put a damper on things."He told me.This might be true,but I can't focus on anything else...I haft to read it.right?"ya...lets just get it over with."I sat back on Zach and I differently could tell that no madder what this said we weren't done here.I reached over and grabbed the letter off my night stand.I held it in my hand and looked down to see the small stamp she had used to send it.I looked up at Zach,he was leaning up on his elbows."You sure."He asked.I paused I wasn't sure,maybe this was a bad idea,what if this changes everything,but as they say,curiosity killed the cat."ya."I huffed out.I slid my finger under the flap and lifted it.I pulled out the letter and opened it slowly.I began to read it.

Dearest Brother,

I'm nervous to even wright this down.Im ashamed of my thoughts and there's no good way to address them.I feel awful that Such thoughts even crossed my mind.I hate to be blunt but there's no better way to tell you so,when I was watching James and Rose I had this felling that only a mother could have.I felt like they deserve a normal family.I fell like Zach and I could have raised them with so many opportunities in life.I feel awful for even thinking that.You and Zach will and are wonderful parents,but this maternal thing was driving me to these dark thoughts.I couldn't handle the thought of doing anything to hurt or ruin your family,so I had to leave.I hope you understand this is what's best for both of us.I hope they grow up to be has wonderful and caring as you two.Im so sorry.please don't hate me.I will always love you,and I hope you can learn to forgive me,but it's not like I would know either way,so I chose to Believe you already have.I so sorry.I hate it to end like this,the rest of our lives rapped up in letters.I wish that this isn't the end,but for now I must say goodby.I will alway love you.

-Yours Truly,Ari

I looked up at Zach with rage,hurt,betrayal,confusion,and understanding in my eyes."What?"He asked hesitant."Read it."I barked trusting the letter towards him,he took it caustically.When he finished he rain his fingers through his hair."Wow."He said plainly."Wow.thats it.Zach she said "normal family"that doesn't bug you."I asked pissed off."Ya.kind of,but there so much behind this then just her wanting them to have a normal family."He said.I slowly shook my head and agreed."Ya,maybe your right, maybe there something else going on.Im sorry,I'm just so confused on what this means...I haft to tell mom and Nona,and everyone..oh God what am I going to tell everyone.Hi my sister wanted to raise my kids in a normal family with my husband.My sister wanted to sleep with my gay husband.How are people going to take that...I..I..oh..my...god."I start to panic."Shhhhh..come down,deep breaths."Zach said rubbing my back."We'll worry about it tomorrow,but right know you have other commitments."He said smiling.I smiled and kissed him,maybe it would help keep my mind of things."ok."I said.he fell back on to the bed."wow who said I was doing all the work."I joked."Shh that's what happens when you pick top."Zach joked."ya,ya."I mumbled pulling his boxers down.He smiled,and I smiled back."Im so lucky."He whispered."I haven't even started yet."I told him."Not that,but just having you in general makes me the luckiest person alive."He told me."Awwwww."I said."ok you won me over."I told him,he giggled.I striped down and connected our lips for one more quick kiss.He really was lucky...and so am I.😉