LGBT Help

My Story

  Being part of the LGBT+ community was, and still is, one of the hardest things I've experienced. There are so many different terms in the community, it can get confusing, trust me, I've been through many. In the past 4-5 years, I have been Straight, Bisexual, Asexual, Abrosexual, Pansexual, Gay, Polysexual, Cisgender, Non-Binary, and Genderfluid.

 Around Grade 5, I watched a My Little Pony documentary and these two people were talking about the percentages of what the sexualities of most viewers are, and the term Asexual came up, that was my first time hearing it. In Grade 6 ish, I came out as Asexual (a while after I told my mom I might be Bi), but then I changed it again because I wanted to feel like I could fit in with people at my school, and me being young I barely knew what it meant. I went through other sexualities, Then in Grade 8 I came out online as Pansexual, than in Grade 9 I came out to people as Pansexual in my school life, which was up until Sunday, February 23rd, 2020 I was starting to think I was Polysexual. On Monday, February 24th, 2020 I was talking with my friend and telling them I think I'm Asexual and I told them how I was feeling about attraction and they said I sound like an Asexual and possibly Aromantic, and hearing that I sound like an Asexual is very relieving, I do know for sure I'm Asexual but not sure if I am Aromantic yet.  

During my time as a Pansexual, I've heard things and most of the things people were saying were rude and confidence damaging and invalidating Pansexuals, the things were:  "You're not Pansexual"   " Our day is better than your day" (Pride Month)  "Bisexual is better than Pansexual"   "What is that supposed to mean?"  "You're Transphobic and Biphobic because you're Pan"  As you may be able to tell, those are hurtful things.

Asexual is a term meaning you don't feel sexual attraction to anyone                  Aromantic is a term meaning you don't feel romantic attraction to anyone

I am Asexual, and I do feel like I am Aromantic as well, but not completely sure about it, it's mostly because when I get into a relationship, I don't feel anything, no sexual attraction, no romantic attraction, the only attraction I like is sensual, just hugs and cuddles. I have been dealing with all mixed feelings for 4-5 years now and it feels great finally knowing my sexuality. I should have listened to my body when it was giving me signs that I was Asexual.

Moving onto gender identity. Gender identity is a hard thing to come to terms with. Throughout the years I've been Cisgender, Non-Binary, and Genderfluid. currently, I identify as Non-Binary.

Cisgender: A person who identifies as their birth sex ( Male He/Him and Female She/Her)                                                                                                                                                    Non-Binary: A person who uses pronouns They/Them. They don't associate with their birth sex and use their birth pronouns.                                                                            Genderfluid: Genderfluid is a fluid gender identity where a person feels masculine, feminine, or both on different days.

The reason I'm Non-Binary is I don't like to associate with being female and use she/her. I have nothing against it, it's just not who I am, and I don't want to be feminine every day, and I don't want to be masculine every day either. I am Androgynous more than Feminine or Masculine. On days when I'm confident I will dress more feminine and vice versa, but every day I dress Androgynous. So that is why I use They/Them pronouns to associate with my Androgyninity.

Choosing a name that is right for you is a hard part of gender identity. I have had countless names I have gone by, it was hard and still is hard, but at this point, I'm going by Kay. It isn't very creative but it is a name I enjoy, it might change again, but that's part of life. The only advice I have if you are planning on changing your name is, Take your time, it isn't something that will happen overnight.

Being part of the LGBT+ community is hard, everyone knows that, but it will get easier. If you are struggling with things inside the LGBT+ community talk to an adult or a friend you trust.

I hope you enjoyed this chapter as much as I enjoyed writing this, please don't leave hate, this is a Safe and Hate Free Zone. Please vote, share, and comment on this story. I promise I will update a lot more in 2020. Remember Stay Hydrated and Stay Fabulous. Peace out!