Call Out My Name

Lost in the Fire

Selena's POV

Anxiety is a bitch. One moment I'm fine the it hits me hard. I want to be left alone. I just want to cry. I just want to lock myself in my room. I've been avoiding girls night out for weeks but this week my girls weren't having that. They took me out. We had fun. We danced. We had drinks. It was a great time. I posted the pics that they took of me because I felt confident at that moment. When I read the comments I felt like the confidence got sucked right out of me. People were commenting if I had a boob job. Saying all kinds of mean things. I broke my own record but I deleted it. I don't care about records anyways. I felt a lot of pressure being on social media. Between the hate of some of Abel's fans, haters in general, people tagging me in pictures/videos with Justin, Abel, and them with Bella and Hailey. I just couldn't take it... I went live to talk to fans then it was time for me to take yet, another break.

Julia was nodding her head as she watched her good friend record her verse in Anxiety.

Always wanted to be one of those people in the room
That says something and everyone puts their hand up
Like, "If you're sad put your hand up
If you hate someone, put your hand up
If you're scared, put your hand up"
Feel like I'm always apologizing for feeling
Like I'm out of my mind when I'm doing just fine
And my exes all say that I'm hard to deal with
And I admit it, it's true
But all my friends, they don't know what it's like, what it's like
They don't understand why I can't sleep through the night
And I thought that I could take something to fix it
Damn, I wish it, I wish it was that simple, ah
All my friends they don't know what it's like, what it's like

"Sounding good babe. Now let's go record the 'I got all these thoughts, running through my mind' verse" Selena nodded before singing

I got all these thoughts, running through my mind
All the damn time and I can't seem to shut it off
I think I'm doing fine most of the time
I say that I'm alright, but I can't seem to shut it off
Shut it, shut it, yeah

"So how are you feeling?" Julia asked her friend after their recording session. "I'm feeling better than I did months ago but I'm still working on some things..." she said truthfully. "You look better. Not saying you looked hideous or anything but you seem a lot better mentally." Julia and Selena have been friends since 2013. They have so much in common such as shitty ex boyfriends (Justin not Abel ofc!). They're always and will always be there for one another. Since the break up, Julia hasn't brought him up to her out of respect so she beats around the bush by asking how she's feeling physically and emotionally.

Selena wasn't the only one in the studio. While she was singing about anxiety, her ex boyfriend was singing about her being a waste of his time yet again and singing about Bella.

I wanna fuck you slow with the lights on (Lights on, lights on, lights on)
You're the only one I've got my sights on (Sights on, sights on, sights on)
Type of sex you could never put a price on (Price on, price on, price on)
I'll take it off, you're the one I'll roll the dice on (Dice on, dice on, dice on)
And I just want a baby with the right one
(I just want a baby with the right)
'Cause I could never be the one to hide one
(I could never be the one to hide)
And we lost a lot of things in the fire
So it took a year for me to find out (Find out, find out)
I can't lose you, babe (I can't lose you)

Bella waited for her man to finish recording once he finished she threw her arms around his neck when he stepped out of the booth. "Baby, I love you!" Bella smiled as she squeezed him. "I don't want to rush it but I can't wait till the day we live happily ever after." She smiled at him who just chuckled. "What?" She giggled as she playfully pushed him. "I want that so badly. Bella Tesfaye, hope that sound?" He chuckled and kissed her. "Let's go babe, I'm hungry."

TO BE CONTINUED