Jasper's Loving Mate (completed) (not edited)

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Shockingly we were honeymooning at Isle Esme which I head was gonna be the same place Belal and Edward were gonna be honeymooning. The reason they are gonna send both here is due to where the island is by itself Jasper and Edward when he and Bella come here will not have to worry about anyone seeing them.

I carried my things up from the boat and pushed the big door open and took in the living room before I made my way through the house and headed to a room where I placed my things down and looked through my suitcases seeing sexy garments that were useless to have.

I moved them aside and grabbed a swimsuit and headed off into the bathroom changed into the swimsuit then grabbed a towel and removed the makeup and headed out the bathroom and walked out the door and headed down to the beach area and set my towel down and walked into the water.

I laid back and relaxed as the water softly moved beneath me.

Once I was finished with my swim I dried off headed inside showered and went to sleep.

Not how I  planned my wedding night but it is what it is, and had they not went ahead with the planning then this would never be the outcome, or if Jasper would tell me what about me revolts him so much.

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The next day I awake and get up brush my hair put it up in a simple messy bun and headed to the kitchen and cooked me something to eat and, took it outside on the porch and ate it as I watched the sunrise.

 "Let's talk right now"

I looked over my shoulder and seen Jasper walkout. So I set my empty plate on the little table and I waited for him to sit down.

"What is it that has you revoked against me, what about me sickness you that every single time I have tried to seduce you or make a move on you all me to get dressed and look away as if I am the nastiest things you have ever seen. and don't even try to make excuses or lies I am not gonna listen to them anymore. you are gonna tell me the truth."

"I man not disgusted with you or your body I want more than anything to touch you fully under your seduction and make the wildest passionate love to you I could cry. But I can not"

I looked at him

"Every time I look at you the images from the wreck comes back and I get scared that I will do the same damage to you if not worse"

"and you can't tell this to me, you can't bring it to my attention that this has been going on. instead, you make me feel like I am a horrid person and that you would rather fuck someone else than me."

I cried as  I spoke to him, I was not about to hold my emotion and I knew from the way he winched and cringed I could tell my emotions were hitting him full force.

"Doy you feel that? do you feel how I am, what you caused cause you never came to me and talked to me, you never told me what is going on, you made me feel this for so long? well, now you feel this shit. I am tired of holding it in."

"I am sorry, I never meant for you to feel this, I just don't want to hurt you  or kill you"

" You didn't hurt me or killed me when you fucked me the first time. I had marks, and I was sore but I loved it. You have no right holding something that effects me away from me. You are my fiance. now husband and I will not have secrets kept from one another."

I stood there and I wiped my eyes.

"I love you and will always love you but I will never allow this feeling I have to ever happen again and that is a promise."

With that said I gathered my dishes and headed inside and cleaned the kitchen.

It wasn't long before he came in turned me to face him grabbed me by my face and kissed me hard then lifted me up in his arms and carried me off.

He kissed down my neck, laid me in the bed ripped my clothes off and unclasped my bra and tore off my panties before he ravished me like a hungry beast that I craved him to be in bed.

My body was brought to heights that I never knew could be reached.. it went beyond the ones I felt when he took my innocence.

We both came together. We spent that night making up for lost times.