𝑇𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒☾. (Johnny depp)

(𝙸 𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞) 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 1

"Johnny" I say with light velvet in my voice "yes,baby" Johnny says putting his hand on my knee "I'm in love with you" I say in sudden impulse, Johnnys eyes get wide "Stevie"
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"Stevie, stevie" my eyes widen as music blasts in my ears making me confused. I squint my eyes and raise my head from the shiny wood desk "sorry, mom" I say rubbing my head "it's 2 am and your music is still loud, how could you fall asleep to that pep" she pauses and goes over to the black and blue boom box and turns it off "It woke me up" she sighs "sorry, mom I won't do it again- "hey, I have a question, why don't you ever hang out with Johnny it seemed like you too were glued at the hip for a while there" she takes a seat on my bed. Johnny always has to be brought up, to ruin me till my efficient doom. "Uhh" I rest my head on my hand "we just, uh had a fight.. why" I say in confusion "because, honey you shut yourself out after he stopped hanging out with you. I figured something happened but I didn't say anything. If you don't mind me asking what was the fight about" I shake my head, it was full of regret and dismissal "well, he became really popular and stopped hanging out with me, to go sleep around with his lady friends, can't believe he hasn't got a sti yet" I say in disbelief "jeez, That really sucks steve, he will come around eventually" my mom says and places her hand on my knee. Then the dream that I had prior, me being awoken flashed back in my head, I'm in love with you me in love with Johnny, ha... that couldn't be. "Okay well honey I have to go to bed now, I'm extremely tired and you should too" she pauses and looks at me "and I hope things get better with you and Johnny" I just nodded my head and said "goodnight" and then she walked out of the room
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I laid awake in my bed staring at the popcorn ceiling, and thinking about the dream I had of him why was he always on my mind it was insufferable thinking about him, he made me vulnerable and desperate for any attention he gives me, which isn't a lot if you don't include the hate and bullying. He was contradicting a lot of my emotions and decisions I wanted us to be friends again so badly I think to myself but I gave up on that topic a while ago, that meant nothing to me anymore because of how hard I tried.

"BEEP" my alarm sounds in a attempt to wake me "ahh once again another sleepless night" I sigh out as I take the covers off of me and walk to my bathroom to preform my morning routine.  brushing my dirty blonde hair, putting on light makeup, brushing my teeth. Then I go to my wardrobe and pick out a multi color top from gap with blue washed jeans and a navy blue jacket. I didn't intend to look so colorful but it's what's in now a days.
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I walk downstairs to see my mom down there smiling at me "good morning mom, where's dad" I say melancholy "he left for work early sweetheart" she says sitting down at the kitchen table "oh, okay, uhh I'm gonna be late if I don't go now" I smile apologetically "oh, well alright bye honey love you- I slam the door and I'm off.
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I walk into my first class, and I am immediately faced with Johnny and like always as soon as he seen me he adjusted his self and would cough so I would notice him, I search for a open seat but I was a little bit late so the only seat that was there was next to Johnny really universe it's gotta be everyday now and I could tell that Johnny noticed that there was no where else to sit in this cramped room besides next to him and he seemed angered by that
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I take a seat next to him his leather jacket swinging on the chair behind him, he looks at me up and down and just stares at me not in a mad way just stared at me like I was the most beautiful thing he ever saw, but that's not true of course. Johnny stared at me a lot in class, he hated when I caught him too, and I loved it when I caught him. I take my note book and place it on the desk that sat directly next to him and he was a little to close to me close enough that his cologne was polluting the air between us, but to be honest I didn't mind that much, I truly didn't mind at all.
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Then all of a sudden I notice the clock, the one thing that destroys my day and reminds me of my terrible and agonizing self, I turn my head away and try to ignore the ticking time bomb that never went off. I look back down and sigh out as I continue to focus on the teacher "are you okay" Johnny says silently, I turn my head "yes I'm fine" I quickly say and turn around why is he worried about me, "the attention whore" I burry my face in my arms letting my eyes shut for a bit as the teacher explains the putrid review that we all knew. I never could sleep when I was supposed to, like at night but I sleep at miraculous times of the day, that's new, and I don't know why but I felt so secure with Johnny next to me, and I tried to shake that off my shoulders but the feeling wouldn't go away it stood still with the clock.
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     I slowly open my eyes, trying my hardest to stay awake but, it didn't work, it never worked at times like these. As I lifted my eye lids, I saw Johnny starring at me, my eyebrows furrow as he looked away and breathed out looking annoyed. I raise my head and put my head on my hand and blink weakly "I hate you, just so you know" Johnny mumbles "oh as if I don't know" I smirk "why can't you ever shut up" Johnny states "um  you were the one who brought up a conversation in the first place, I'm just sitting here". God he's so bipolar one moment he's worrying about my state then the next he wants me to die, why can't he just be mean to me instead of leading me on. "I'm the one that should be asking if your okay" I whisper "what's that's supposed to mean" he snaps back "your so bipolar it's sickening, one moment you care the next you don't what the hell happened with you" I felt that so much that tears started to prickle my eyes and I tried so hard not to let them out, but it's so hard "you know you were my best friend Johnny, you were all I cared about and you left like everyone else" you could hear my sadness in my voice, holding back my tears came through my voice instead.
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    His emotions became drained after I said that he looked depressed and mad it was a whole cluster of emotions on his face prancing at every word I said. As soon as the bell rang Johnny stood up and ran out of class without saying a word to me after what I said. Time to tackle the rest of this terrible day.
To be continued

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