As Johnny peacefully slept, his arms thrown over me, his head resting quietly on my chest I now had time to contemplate. Sleep now evaded me and now more importantly anger replaced which was melatonin. How could they treat Johnny like that- no how could they not see what I saw, I saw someone that no mater what time a day no matter what emotion I felt I'd be captivated by his presence, locked in his gaze like he was some type of light and I was in total darkness...the darkness that whenever I was with him would fade and I would be showered by sunshine. How could they not see him as I do, I asked myself again as anguish began to build.
3:45 am
I wanted to break that clock as if breaking the poor plastic that surrounded it would someone stop the nusense that was time. I wish no prayed that these moments with Johnny would last where his limbs would be around me and the subtle warmth that imitated off of him would heat up my ever so cold skin, I didn't even want to close my eyes afraid that if I did I'd wake up with him not by my side- even though it was of course inevitable Jesus Christ the grasp this man has on me I pittied myself. I tried to shift silently but as soon as I did Johnny's hold on me tightened causing me to stiffen afraid I had woken him but after I had made sure he wasnt awake by uttering a faint "Johnny" and him not replying I knew he hadn't "I wish I could take your pain away" I mumbled under my breath as I stirred in my spot.
Waking up in the morning was unpleasant since sleep was not in my favor that night, I must've went to bed at around 5/4 am and I was absolutely drained of any and all energy and the warmth that Johnny possessed last night but I suppose that's just how my slumber worked-riddled with sonder and coldness, I'm used to it by now, but still every time I would wake out of my dead sleep to the loud blaring mouth of my alarm clock the exhaustion hits me like a ton of bricks trying to crush me, but like I said I've built up the muscle to sustain the weight of the exhaustion.
It didn't help that I had to walk to school today for I was not in kahoots with Parker and Johnny wasn't answering my calls- oh and my mother was already at work so my feet had to drag down the pavement till I managed to get to the large building.
"I'm trying to work" I hissed as Johnny kept trailing his fingertips up and down my thigh feeling the coolness of his rings causing me to shiver as he leaned in and whispered faintly "but I missed you" that sentence made my pencil stop writing as I could feel my face flush a deep crimson my breath hitched "And you look so good today" He whispered as his nose trailed down my cheek causing a swarm of butterflies in my stomach. My eyes darted around the class afraid someone would see him doing this and worst of all someone seeing my reaction how I melted perfectly just as those words. "J-johnny I really need to focus" you said as he chuckled lowly "Oh I'm sorry am I distracting you?" He said as his fingers trailed further down my thigh. I couldn't deny how the electricity felt in that moment, like the perfect exhaustion of bricks lifted off of my back, like time had some how stopped I even checked the clock to make sure it was ticking. "Look at you, your a mess" he grinned against my cheek as he kissed it and let his hand rest back at the middle of my thigh.
I couldn't get my mind to shut up about the debacle that went down earlier it made my stomach do backflips and my mind race and like most days I couldn't wait to be with him again, it made me waste my day away except the not learning isn't new, I try because what else is there to do but education can still be intolerable and now that I have a distraction such as this, it will be more difficult then ever.
Parker is still shooting me death stares that literally damage my soul, why can't he understand we can't be together, I'm in love with johnny even though I haven't said it but I am and I always have been. When it comes down to Parker or Johnny its always gonna be Johnny.
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I am deeply sorry for not updating and I'm revising this chapter, deeply sorry if it wasn't written well for a while I lost motivation to update I swear dearly it gets better.
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𝑇𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒☾. (Johnny depp)
Romansa"Johnny, I cant- "yes you can, your in love with me I know it" Johnny takes my hand and puts it on his heart "at least I am, and I will always be" Johnny says looking me deep in my eyes "this is some sort of tainted love but I don't care, because my...
