Addicted

Truth

Harry's voice starts to stumble as he looks at Ashley.

"Hey Harry it's ok if you are not comfortable to tell anything then let it be. It's absolutely fine. " said Ashley.

"No Ashley.... I have to tell those things. You were right..... sometimes it's good to share things with strangers..... because they won't judge you and we aren't really strangers.... are we? But you ain't gonna judge me over the facts..... right? " asked Harry.

"Of course I won't judge you..... so you can tell me anything you want." said Ashley.

"I knew that.... but hey..... can we go outside to talk....like let's go for a drive." said Harry.

"Yeah.... sounds great. " said Ashley.

So Harry takes Ashley in his car and drives through the town and finally he had the guts to share the complications of his life with Ashley.

"I am sure you very well know about my backstory..... like being in 1d and the struggle before that and everything right?" asked Harry.

"Yeah....obviously" replied Ashley.

"Yeah.... but you don't have any idea about my present. Like it's scattering me every moment.......I achieved every milestone while I was in the band. I saw my dreams come true in those times. I had the best guys of the world as my friends...... I had the greatest fans of the world..... I had my family...... I had everything. But still I had nothing. Being a celebrity is not so easy. All of us were doing fine over the years but at some point it just became a torture. It wasn't about fun and friendship anymore.......it was just a profession we had to carry out. Zayn had the guts.....umm.....that's why he left. But we were bounded. There was so much pressure over us th...that we got anxiety issues. All good things never last long. When Zayn left.....the challenge got harder for us. Day by day it got more harder for us to deal with. Then it was necessary to leave the band. One direction was really close to our hearts.... it was like our dream that provided us everything. So four of us decided to go on heitus and focus on our solo career....Honestly it was a big relief after that. At least we could relax for a while. Firstly it was fun to be an independent artist. But profession is always a profession. I always loved singing.... but I never really wanted a celebrity life...... Frankly speaking I hate the word famous....depression and anxiety became my companions with course of time.....I always had the pressure over me. My friends left me and now we are like strangers who knew each other very well.....my relationships didn't last too long......people rush for me just because of my money, fame and looks. I got cornered from the world....everyone saw one side of the story ignoring the uncovered one. I fought alone against all these things.... I fought against me. The pain was unbearable.That's why I started taking drugs and alcohol. Slowly it became my addiction.....At least for some moments I could forget my pain....forget myself...forget everything. But I had problems with my family after that and now my mom doesn't really speak to me that often..... Everyone left me in my life. When I see myself in the mirror..... I just see my destroyed past and scattered present." Harry almost cried while saying those things and suddenly he stops the car.

"Harry please don't cry....everything will be fine... " said Ashley trying to calm Harry down.

Harry had a emotional outburst after so much time... as Ashley tries to pacify him..... he hugs her tightly....and Ashley feels like it's a dream and blushes in her mind. It was a very sweet moment between them until a car from behind started giving horns..... and both of them are back to the reality.

"Um... umm I am so sorry Ashley..... Ah... I can drive to your house... what say."

"Yah that's fine... I... I mean thanks for that.... so let's go." said Ashley.

After such a sweet moment this became a very awkward moment for both.

" Hey.... Um...if you don't mind..... can I ask you something?" asked Ashley.

[ To be continued....... ]