Can You Blame me... COMPLETED!!!!!!

what now?

AN( just wanted to say that story is a gift to one of my friends for her birthday) 

characters...

officer Min Yoongi

Brother: Kim Namjoon 

Other Brother with family: Park Jimin 

Its been a while since my father past away. I've gotten in so much debt and trouble. There hasn't been day without me drinking or smoking. Yes i admit i am a huge mess, but can you blame me.

I loved my father very much and well now hes gone. Its not like my mother is at any help.

It hasn't even been a week since his passing and she already has a new bitch all over her.

Thank God i do t live with her anymore. Three days after my father passed i moved to an apartment far from her.

I didn't tell her where it was. I wanted her as far as she can possibly be.

I have two brothers and they are a pain but they check in on me once in a while.

But they do have their own lives to live. My brother Jimin is has his wife and kids and my brother Joon well hes a loss case he has been trying to get at friend Yaya but he needs to try a bit harder.

Yaya has been there for me aswell so she doserves someone who can really treat her right.

I am not saying Joon wont , but he has alot to work on. Whenever tough times came she was there too.

I known her since college and yes we are still really good friends.

Boyfriend??? Which one the pyscho who used to mistreat me and abuse me every chance he got... my dad was the reason i gave him up.

My mother in the other hand would love to see me suffer... God i miss my dad.

Unfortunately my time is ul and i must go to work soon. They gave me a few weeks off but I said no i needed to be doing stuff or ill just come and drink all the time.

I was getting out of the shower when there was a sudden nock on the door....

*NOCK NOCK NOCK****

"IN A FUCKING MINUTE JEZUZ"

i got changed as fast as i could, with my hair dripping in water i wen to go open the door.

" ugh Joon why are you banging on the door like that???"

" Melissa your not gonna guess what HAPPEND"

"Judging by your face i am guess It wasn't a bad thing?"

" nnononoooo Nothing bad sis... Yaya FINALLY AGREED TO GO OUT WITH ME..... " 

Almost screaming the last part .... 

boi why you lieing?" i said 

" Sirously i am not!!!!! She finally said yes. I am the happiest in the world right now!!!"

" well i am really happy for you !!" and then i hugged him i am really happy for him he had been trying for so long.

" welp see ya little sis i am off.."

" ummm excuse you were are you going this late>??"

" ugh uh umm ..."

" Kim Namjoon were the hell are you going?" 

" ugh ok i am going to stay at yaya's..." he looks down.

" oh... annnd to do what?"

" girl don't worry about it ok jeez..."

" Namjooon you better not do anything stupid... "

" no, I wont but umm there is ummm going to be breaking stuff involved and it wont be her bed..." he winked and ran out the door leaving me mouth wide open. 

Welp ok i guees my brother is going to be fucking my best friend..... I guess ill just decorate the apartment. Get it readdy for the christmas dinner.

Jimin's wife is making dinner for christmas so with that i don't have to worry much but to ,make some kind of desert. The dinner and Christmas were in one week so i had to get my shit together ASAP.....

I went crazy this year after a few hours i was finally done.

I left out the tree because jimin and his wife are going to pick me and joon up after work so we can leave and go get one a natural one of course.

This year i have not been feeling good at all, i do miss dad but i cannot let me my family be like this.

I need to be strong for them. Fuck my mother and her boyfriend we are going to have the best christmas ever. 

... then again it may be the whiskey talking.....