𝙱𝚘𝚝𝚝𝚘𝚖 𝚂𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚑𝚠𝚊 𝙾𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚝𝚜 [𝚁𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚜 𝙲𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚍]

𝚂𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚑𝚠𝚊 𝚡 𝙷𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚓𝚘𝚘𝚗𝚐

This one shot will contain:
• Seonghwa x Hongjoong
• Bottom Seonghwa
• Top Hongjoong
• Smut/Angst
• Kinks: oppa, oral.
• Warnings: This oneshot covers topics of self harm and slight bullying. If these topics make you uncomfortable please do not read.
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Seonghwa POV:
I'd just woken up to the Woosan duo plus Jongho screaming their lungs off at Mario Kart in their room. I was so exhausted since I couldn't sleep last night, so I got up from out of bed and walked towards Woosan's room. I knocked on the door before I heard Wooyoung yell from the other side telling me to come in.
"Please can you keep the noise down" I said trying my best not to sound annoyed.
"Ooo sorry can't we have fun, jeez I can tell you're a virgin" Jongho remarked.
"Fuck he needs to get laid, he's such a whiney bitch" San said laughing. Even if they were joking I couldn't help the tears that started to build up in my eyes, but what Wooyoung said hurt me the most:
"No wonder he's still a virgin all he does is annoy everyone Hongjoong hyung must find him disgusting since he hasn't even attempted to make the first move. We all know Seonghwa hyung is the bottom cause all he does is moan like a little bitch" then they burst into laughter.
I just left the room and ran to the bathroom before I broke down into tears. It was so embarrassing that I was the only virgin in ATEEZ, all the others had lost theirs including Hongjoong. Before I knew it my hand had made it's way onto one of the members razors.
I slowly slipped the blade out of the razor and left the bathroom forgetting that I'd left the now empty razor on show. I walked back into mine and Hongjoong's shared room passing Hongjoong on the way.
"Morning baby" he smiled kissing my cheek before I said good morning to him clenching my first to hide the blade.
Then I went into our room and locked the door. If I knew Hongjoong I knew that once he'd woken up he didn't come back to the bedroom until bed time again so I knew I was safe in here. I sat down on the bed slowly contemplating if I was going to do this or not.
You see I'd always struggled with my mental health and self harm but then the rest of the members helped me through and I hadn't harmed myself in over 10 months. But those words just kept replaying in my head like a broken damn record.
"Virgin"
"Whiney Bitch"
"Annoying"
"Disgusting"
Before I knew it the blade was on my upper thigh, if I was going to do this I wouldn't do it on my wrist like last time I'd do it somewhere nobody could see. Hongjoong wouldn't see since he had no reason to take my pants off because he finds me so disgusting.
I slowly slid the blade down across my leg seeing blood start to form and tears began to rush down my face. I continued doing this for a while before I heard Hongjoong banging on the door obviously he'd found the empty razor.
"Baby, why did you lock the door" He asked I couldn't do anything but cry. I'd broken my promise to him as my sobs began to increase in volume.
"Baby, please open the door I'm worried" he said and I could hear him start to cry.
I couldn't not open the door now since he was so worried so I quickly grabbed some grey tracksuit bottoms and slipped them over my legs wincing as the fabric made contact with my cuts.
Before I hid the blade in my hand again. I walked over to the door and unlocked it seeing Hongjoong's now tear stained face.
"Baby why did you lock the door?" Hongjoong asked before he lifted up the empty razor he then grabbed both my hands making me tense up.
"I-I was g-getting changed" I said hitting myself mentally for stuttering.
"Why did it take so long and what's in your hand?" Hongjoong asked trying to open my hand but I just clenched my fist tighter as I could feel the blade dig into my hand.
"Baby please, what is it? Tell me you didn't" He said.
"I can't show you, you'll hate me and you'll break up with me" I sobbed.
"Baby boy I would never please show me" Hongjoong asked his voice sounding so broken. I slowly opened my hand revealing the blade and my now bloody palm.
"Oh baby, where?" Hongjoong asked.
"I didn't do it" I lied but he knew me too well and began rolling up my sleeves seeing nothing but old scars.
"Where baby?" He asked sobbing.
"I can't tell you" I sobbed.
"Then I'll find out where myself" Hongjoong said removing my shirt.
Then his hand grabbed for the waistband of my pants and I grabbed his hand and just froze. He looked down and noticed the blood coming through the fabric.
"Baby?" He cried.
"Please d-don't Hongjoong" I sobbed lowering my my head.
"Princess I need to see" He said before he slowly pulled my pants down revealing my cuts and bloody thigh.
"Oh baby, why?" Hongjoong sobbed before he stood up and pulled me into a hug.
"Because...I'm a virgin, I'm a whiney bitch and most of all I'm DISGUSTING" I said shouting the last part my voice sounding broken.
"What? Who told you that?" Hongjoong asked sounding angry now.
"Wooyoung, San and Jongho" I sobbed.
"Wait here" Hongjoong demanded before he left the room.
I soon heard shouting before Hongjoong reappeared this time standing in front of me with Wooyoung, San and Jongho standing in the doorway.
"Hongjoong hyung why did you interrupt us?" Jongho asked.
"Why did I interrupt you, seriously? Because when I come in to find my beautiful boyfriend like this..." Hongjoong said stepping to one side revealing me to Wooyoung, San and Jongho.
"I'm going to want to know why?" Hongjoong continued.
"Hyung I'm so sorry you relapsed but how does this have anything to do with us?" San asked now sounding concerned.
"How? Who was the one who called him a virgin like it's something to be ashamed of? Who was the one to call him a whiney bitch? And WHO called my baby disgusting?" Hongjoong asked.
The boys just hung their heads knowing the damage they had done.
"Hyung we're so sorry please forgive us" they all said gathering around me before giving me a hug.
"I forgive you" I said hugging them back.
"Never, I repeat never let me hear you say those things to him again because I'll be the first to report you to the CEO, I love you guys but you never know how words can affect someone's life. Please be more considerate of others feelings" Hongjoong said before he walked over to me and hugged me.
"Thank you Joongie" I whispered. Then the boys apologised one last time before leaving the room pulling the door closed.
"Right baby lets get you cleaned up" Hongjoong said grabbing our first aid kit from the bedside table. He first wiped away all the blood before he then applied some antiseptic cream and finally applying a huge bandaid over my cuts.
He then leaned down and placed a kiss over the bandaid. I let out a quiet moan since I was quite sensitive near my thighs. He just continued kissing my thigh. I wriggled around uncomfortably as I could feel myself getting hard.
"Are you okay baby, does it feel good?" Hongjoong asked before he moved over to my other thigh running his tongue on the inner part before he began sucking on the skin.
"F-ah Oppa" I moaned before I quickly slapped my hand over my mouth.
"Baby what did you call me?" Hongjoong asked but I didn't answer him.
"Okay don't want to talk huh, I'll get it out of you one way or the other" Hongjoong smirked.
"You're okay with this right?" He asked.
I just nodded my head still blushing from having called him Oppa. Hongjoong slowly moved me further onto the bed laying me down.
"Now are you gonna tell me what you called me?" Hongjoong asked. I just shook my head.
"Okay, you've made your choice" Hongjoong smirked before he began kissing my neck hard. Another one of my turn ons.
"Ah feels good Hongjoong" I moaned teasing him by not calling him Oppa. He then began unbuttoning my shirt and tugging on my nipples.
"O-op Hongjoong don't stop" I moaned almost slipping up and calling him Oppa.
"Ah nearly" Hongjoong smirked before he began sucking on my nipple teasing the small bud with his tongue driving me crazy.
"Hongjoong Oppa-ah" I moaned, internally screaming from giving up so quickly.
"There we go, wasn't so hard was it...but, this is" Hongjoong smirked before he moved down the bed, roughly grabbing my now fully hard cock through my boxers.
"OPPA" I moaned loudly.
"Fuck you're beautiful, keep calling me that baby boy" Hongjoong said biting his lip. He then pulled my cock out and began sucking it, deep throating me.
"Oppa please fuc-AH it hurts" I was cut off mid sentence as Hongjoong pushed a finger inside me causing tears to flow down my face.
"Baby it will hurt but it gets better, just breathe and try to relax okay Oppa will take care of you" Hongjoong said softly causing a whimper to escape my lips at the fact he referred to himself as Oppa.
He then began thrusting his finger in and out whilst still sucking me off. After a while it felt so good I just couldn't wait any longer.
"Oppa fuck me now" I begged.
"Holy shit I think I just came" Hongjoong smirked. Before he got up and tried applying a condom but I stopped him.
"Don't. I want to feel you, all of you" I whined as tears filled my eyes.
I felt really submissive right now and just wanted him to go rough with me.
"You sure you're ready" he asked.
"Oppa hurry up" I sobbed grabbing Hongjoong's hips and pulling him towards me.
"Okay baby, okay" Hongjoong said before he applied lube to his cock and slowly started to enter me, my face contorting into pain.
"It hurts" I sobbed as fresh tears rolled down my face.
"Baby should I stop" Hongjoong asked.
"NO" I almost shouted before I grabbed Hongjoong's hips a final time and pulled him towards me fast.
"Ssssss- Shit" Hongjoong said hissing at the tightness.
"Ah oh my god Oppa move please I don't need to adjust just fuck me hard" I sobbed.
"Baby this is your first time it shouldn't be like this" Hongjoong said concerned.
"Hongjoong fuck me now or I'll just fuck you instead" I said bluntly and Hongjoong knew I was mad as I hadn't called him Oppa.
He then began moving at an animalistic pace.
"Oppa no that's too fast" I moaned but Hongjoong only replied with
"You fucking asked for it" before he began thrusting into me harder causing slapping noises to fill the room.
I placed my arm over my mouth and bit on the flesh trying to keep my moans down knowing that the other members were still in the house but to my shock Hongjoong grabbed my arms and pinned them above my head.
"Oppa please, the others will know" I said in a panicked tone before I moaned loudly hitting myself mentally for doing it at that moment.
"So fucking what, take it" Hongjoong said acting really cold now only turning me on more. He then thrusted harder hitting my prostate.
"Oppa I'm going to cum" I moaned before releasing all over my stomach.
"Baby I'm going to cum too" Hongjoong moaned.
"In my mouth Oppa" I said as Hongjoong pulled out and I moved towards him before I began sucking him off, deep throating him.
"AH fuck baby" Hongjoong moaned before I felt him cum in my mouth. I sat up and swallowed and then I pulled Hongjoong in for a kiss.
"How does it feel not being a virgin anymore?" Hongjoong asked after we'd kissed.
"I love you" I smiled.
"I love you more" Hongjoong smiled.
"Round 2?" I said smiling at Hongjoong and raising my eyebrows.
"Sure thing princess" He winked.