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Piece of My Mind

Poetry

These are pieces that I have written that have came straight from the darkest places in my mind. A lot of these do have a lot of emotion put into them, so I must say that some of these are a TRIGGER WARNING! If I trigger any of you, I apologize. Thi...

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I'm Not Okay

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by young_verse

by young_verse

Inspired by Crypt

I come to the page to get inspired again
I come here to get confident again
But it's starting to get hard as I'm still committing sin
Every night my last words are "In Jesus name I pray amen."
However I'm still feeling pain
I still want to take a bullet to my brain
My wife tells me to flip the page
Tomorrow is a brand new day
But it seems like every page
Stays the fucking same
I cant continue losing this game
Doing my best to rise to fame
But I'm doing it all the wrong way
Tears streaming down my face
I feel like I'm trapped in Satans chains
Why cant I escape this phase
I'm trapped in a daze
As soon as I do escape
It comes back and swallows me the next day
I'm not alright, I'm not okay
I remember when my grandmother passed away
I remember when my innocence was taken away
I remember when a young life was taken away
I remember all of this like it was yesterday
It seemed like everyone had something to say
Stay healthy young, or you end up just the same
Six feet underground in your own grave
She slipped me a pill and said everything would be okay
I took it and she had nothing left to say
I woke up in a bed wrapped in chains
You can tell the story the rest of the way
Then Dill took a bullet to his brain
Then Jay said it was my fault hes in the grave
I overdosed on pills to hide my pain
My mom said say what you need to say

I try to live life like it's a quarter mile
I try to live life with a big ol smile
Like the day she walked down the aisle
But now it feels like we are both on trial
I'm not alright, I'm not okay
I feel like my marriage is going down the drain
Everything I worked for in life is slipping away
I feel like I'm digging my own grave
Why cant I control my brain
I'm trying so hard to flip the script and turn the page
But it feels like I'm trapped in a video game
I die and get back up and everything's the same
Everyone takes shots at my brain
"You're nothing but a deadbeat, man what a shame.
You had a good life and you just threw it away."
Go ahead Young Verse, dig your own grave
No ones going to miss you anyway
It's not like you had any fame
You walking is a waste of space
Disappear without a trace
Man fuck my brain
Would my wife say the same
Or would she stick by my side like it's the first day
Maybe I should pay attention to what she has to say
But baby girl, I'm afraid
Just listen to me when I say

I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Okay
I don't wanna feel today
I don't wanna deal with pain
Someone take this all away
'Cause I'm Not Okay
I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Okay
I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Okay
I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Okay
I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Okay
I don't wanna feel today
I don't wanna deal with pain
Someone take this all away
'Cause I'm Not Okay
I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Okay
I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Okay
I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Alright
I'm Not Okay