narnia + harry potter imagines

protection [j.p] - 07.08.19

word count: 2233

pairing: james potter x twin!reader

warnings: angst

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you sat on your couch, silent tears rolling down your face as your thoughts raced through your head at an ungodly speed. you tried listening, you really did, but everyone's frantic chatter was drowned out by the sinking feeling in your stomach. abruptly, you stood up, catching the eye of everyone as you walked casually out of the room, and you made a faint note about how the distant buzz of conversation was suddenly missing as you exited. you didn't blame them for staring, nor in that moment, did you care.

he was dead. your other half, your twin was dead. the boy who used to pick on your height, chase you around the backyard, the one who helped you up when you fell. he was dead. she was too. your best friend from all those years in school, the one who had a growing hatred for your brother's annoying, flirty comments he seemed to throw her way daily. she was dead. james and lily, the two most important people in your life, were dead.

you didn't know what to do. you cried for them. for james, your twin brother. for lily, your best friend. for their love. for your loss. the person you cried the most for however, was your nephew, harry. you wanted to take him in, you did. it pained you to do so, but you asked lily's sister to take him in. it took some convincing (which may or may not have included threats), but after pleading to her about how you wanted him away from the magic community, she agreed. he looked exactly like james, and you knew with time he'd only grow to look more like your missing half. selfishly, you gave him away to protect yourself. and you ran as far as you could, out of sight, and out of harry's life.

time skip —

it was just before the start of harry's third year when you received a message from remus. over the years of your absence, you'd vaguely kept in contact, you updating him moderately on your locations, only meeting a select few times for a short butterbeer and chat. you never stayed in the same place for too long, for fear of being caught. ever since you'd lost james and lily, you'd never been the same. always on edge, not trust anyone. except remus. he was always your favorite of james' friends, his soft spot for you forming the day you met. he always cared for you like another brother, who brought a different type of comfort than what you had with james. so when you read the letter he'd sent, you were in complete shock.

dearest y/n,

it is with mixed emotions i write you this letter. i hope you receive it quickly, as the term will begin in the next few weeks. as you know, my condition has prevented me of finding work within the magical community, for reasons i feel i don't need to explain. not to you, anyways.

professor dumbledore (i suppose it's only appropriate for me to address him as so again) has contacted me, and has offered me a position at hogwarts. i'm beginning as the new defensive against the dark arts teacher at the school this term. i know what you're probably thinking reading this; how safe can it be for a school with a werewolf as a professor? trust me, i feel the same way, though dumbledore has once again assured me he will put the same precautions we took as children into my case and ensure the environment is safe for me.

i'm sure you've already figured it out at this point, but harry will be attending the school as well and yes, i will be teaching him. i will not mention you if you wish not to, but as much as i've been pushing you to be apart of his life y/n, now's your chance. i can bring you up, or i can pretend you don't exist. harry has suffered long enough, he thinks he's alone in this world and you can change that. sure, he'll be upset but he won't hate you.

i won't pressure you into anything, but i want you to consider it. i just hope through all of this, no matter what you may choose to do, you'll be happy for me. this opportunity is asking a lot of the school and it is very special to me. not only for a job, but to finally get to meet harry in person. i've been told he's much like james.. nearly identical. i suppose i'll see for myself soon enough. write back soon.