forbidden love {reddie}

Chapter 5

"You know I'm been dealing with family issues ive been going through this motion and life, I've been stressing like crazy and I've been letting pressure get the best of me lately, but i want them late nights with you, date nights with you. All around the world taking plane flights with you its real, how you feel? i ain't lying i need you, we've been way too distant lately when can i see you? I know you need someone to be faithful to you, but to prove it not to just say it to you. I'm just trying to put the pieces back together i promise you I'll stay but i cant promise you forever." -Phora

The next morning Eddie woke up in a daze, it took him a second to realize what happened yesterday. He blushed and quickly looked over to Richie, who was laying right next to him. Eddie noticed Richie didnt have a shirt on and neither he, both boys also in their boxers. Looking back at it he doesn't remember coming back to Richie's apartment. The little one started silently freaking out, wondering was had happened after they kissed.

Richie woke up a few minutes later, as soon as they made eye contact he blushed. "morning sunshine" He spoke in a soft voice. Eddie just looked at him worried.

"What happened yesterday? How did we get back?" Eddie tried to stay calm, getting scared that something happened while he wasn't conscious.

"I have no idea Eds, i blacked out. that happens sometimes" Richie could tell Eddie was scared, and to be honest so was he. The thought of doing something with Eddie while they were both under the influence made him scared that it might affect Eddie and also legal reasons. "Um, do you want to make breakfast" Richie tried to make it less awkward, not succeeding.

Eddie simply nodded, getting up and getting his clothes on and walking into the kitchen, Richie following right behind. Richie took out bacon and pancake batter, along with two pans. He started cooking as Eddie sat on the counter, watching him cook. "How often do you do that?" Eddie kind of worried about Richie. Richie could tell Eddie was worried for him, he didn't want that, he didn't want anyone to worry about him. When they worry they expect him to change, and they just get disappointed.

Richie walked over to Eddie and put himself between both of Eddies legs, who was still on the counter. Richie put his hands on both of Eddies cheeks. "Not that many times love, i promise." Richie lied right through his teeth. Eddie blushed when Richie called him love, something about the pet names Richie gives him makes his heart skip a beat. The smaller one licked his lips and looked at Richies. Richie did the same, they both leaned in slowly. Lips threatening to touch, both hesitating to actually close the gap between them. They jumped apart when they heard the door open.

"Morning Richie" Stan yawned. When he saw Eddie he was kind of surprised he was still there. Anyone Richie brings home leaves before he wakes up, and Richie definitely does not make breakfast for them. Whats different about him? Did Richie actually start caring about other people? Stan didn't want to continue falling into this hole of questions, he might as well ask. "So, he's still here? You've never made breakfast for anyone you brought home"

Eddie smiled to himself, but suddenly stopped. Its probably because he felt bad about what happened or what might've happened. Eddie wasn't special. He didn't matter to Richie. Richie feels bad because of his mom. Part of Eddie didn't want to think about any of this he knew he was probably being dramatic but he couldn't help it. They were his true thoughts.

"We didn't sleep together stan." Richie said bluntly, then continued making break fast. It seemed as if Richie was disgusted at the thought of it.

"Yeah he does look really young." Stan looked Eddie up and down before sitting on the couch and pulling out his phone.

Eddie looked down, upset about how defensive Richie got. Would it be bad if we did have sex and i was of age? He would probably be ashamed and not want to admit to it. Richie sleeps with a lot of people so would Eddie just get his heart broken? He didn't want to think of that, it hurt too much. "Should i leave?" It didn't mean to slip out of Eddies mouth as a question. Be meant it to be stern and tell Richie he was leaving. Richie looked at him with a look Eddie hated. Pity. Eddie put on a smile, looking so genuine you could not tell it was fake. "I have to go" Eddie got up and went to Richies room.

"What the fuck stan?" Richie spat. "Are you fucking kidding me, why did you- oh my god please keep your mouth shut stan" Richie walked over to his room, he felt so bad. He shouldn't have been so rude about everything and let stan be stan around Eddie when they dont know each other. He could tell he fucked up just at the fact of knowing he hurt Eddie, for some reason the thought hurt him too.

When Richie entered the room he closed the door behind him. Eddie who had his back turned to the taller one turned around. "You can't fucking do that Richie, you cant fucking act like you like me or your interested in me then get disgusted when your roommate thought we slept together, that hurts Richie." Eddie was tearing up at his own words. Maybe Richie didnt feel the same and just felt bad that Eddie liked him.

He hated watching Eddie crumble at these words. It hurt him too. "Eddie im so sorry, ok? Im not good at this stuff. I've never felt this way about anyone and its fucking scary for me. You're 17, I'm 25. We could get into so much shit Eddie" Richie could feel the tears forming in his eyes but he pushed them back, he doesn't let himself cry anymore ut shows weekness and that was a scary thing for Richie. Letting his walls down and letting someone see him at his worst.

Richie could even process what was going on, but him and Eddie kissed. It was a short but sweet kiss. Nothing more than a meaningful peck. "I'm going home rich" and with that he walked out the door.