Wala lang.

Disclaimer/ Note: This would be a Taglish story. Expect grammar and typo errors ahead but i'll try to revise and keep it clean as much as possible.

Salamat...

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Prologue - Wala lang.

I stopped going to my university for a year. I was homeschooled kasi aalis na din ako ng bansa kaya sayang lang kung papasok pa ako then di ko naman matatapos yung school year kaya we decided that homeschooling was the best option that time.

It was so new to me, no friends, no hang outs. Lumipat din kasi ako ng bahay and my school is far from my new house kaya I couldn't visit my friend as much.

After few months.

My paper was released and I am ready to leave anytime.

After my Lola's birthday they sent me to Canada to live with my Mom.

June 22,2019

I met you.

Ikaw.

At first we didn't even noticed each other.

You were just fine without me and I was as fine as you were.

Nasa church tayo and we just held out meeting. They introduced me to everyone and they accepted me like I already belonged to their family.

And still, parang wala lang tayo sa isa't isa.

We know each other's name and that's all about it.

that was all about it.

There's four of you.

Isa isa kayo nagpakilala sakin.

Natasha.

Charles.

Anthony.

and then there's you.

Jonathan.

you are so quiet back then.

were you? or you just didn't like me back then

Charles. he was so good to me

dumating din yung time na I started catching feelings for him and i felt like he did too.

but i didn't, he probably didn't know and he probably won't tell me about it.

All of us would hang out 24/7

yun tipong more than 12hrs tayo magkakasama lahat then magvi-video call tayo magkakaibigan hanggang 3am

na para bang miss na miss natin isa't isa at magkakalayo tayo.

tas magkikita tayo ulit ng 9am.

naghihiwalay ng 11pm.

magvi-video call hanggang 3am.

then repeat.

might be childish but i enjoyed it.

you made me feel like i am already part of your team kahit na 3 years na kayo magkakaibigan

they also included me sa plans nilang magkakaibigan.

ako. na ilang araw o linggo pa lang nilang nakikilala.

Ikaw.

Still. Wala lang tayo sa isa't isa.

Kilala kita, kilala mo ako. that's all.

Wala lang talaga.

di ko naman aakalin na magiging lahat kita.

a month have passed.

we started talking to each other.

casual lang. still,

wala pa rin tayo.

ni hindi ko nga alam kung kaibigan kita non e.

another month had passed.

your bestfriend starts catching feelings for me.

and hinayaan ko lang siya.

i told him na masaya ako kasama siya.

and i actually do.

dumating yun punto akala ko i liked him too.

but do i really like him?

or i just love the feeling?

we talked.

24/7.

non-stop.

then you,

you told me to stop talking to him.

you told me to stop everything i had with him.

although we didn't have anything.

you.

you were nothing to me.

but you,

you chose to break us.

and justify it by saying "bawal yan."

okay. his parents didn't want him to hang out with girls that much kasi bata pa kami.

you told his parents about us

and wala naman talagang kami.

wala naman kaming ginagawa.

yes, bata pa kami and we know our limits.

we have no plans on taking it seriously and just enjoy each other's company

pero nothing more than that.

but you took that away from us.

ikaw.

ano bang ginawa ko sayo?

bakit ba ayaw mo sakin?

may nagawa pa akong masama sayo?

and so then,

we didn't talk that much since then.

you,

ikaw na dating wala lang sakin—

lagi mo akong inaasar.

lagi mo tinatanong sakin kung crush ko ba talaga kaibigan mo.

paulit ulit ka.

nakakainis ka.

dumadating din sa punto na masasapak na kita.

but i enjoyed your company.

you were fun to be with.

you made me happy.

and ikaw na dating wala lang sakin..

naging kaibigan ko din.