Wala lang.

V. Wala lang. - Ano yon?

December 19,2019

it's my birthday.

i was happy because my mom let me skip school that day.

nagplan sila kuya mo, Charles and Natasha ng surprise gift para sakin.

i was so happy, i hugged your kuya, natasha and i also hugged Charles.

i was grateful for them.

you were there.

you were behind him when i was hugging him and i saw your face.

i saw it clearly.

you got that look,

i've never seen before.

ano yon?

i can't understand why were you looking that way,

then i let go of the hug.

and you,

inakbayan mo ako.

alam ko di dapat big deal sakin yon,

kasi wala lang yon sayo.

you said kay Anthony—

“who's taller?”

bro, we both know you are.

di ko alam kung inaasar mo nanaman ako o ano e.

but,

you made me happy that day again

it seems like what i forgot what felt that week,

but i couldn't forget what happened.

i forgive you naman na.

i just feel upset kasi you did that,

but i have to let go about that na.

kasi we're still friends even though that happened.

yun taong dating wala lang sakin..

di ko inaakalang magiging rason ng ngiti at sakit ko.

and so we're back to normal.

kulitan,

harutan,

asaran,

like nothing happened,

December 21,2019

nagstay ako kela Charles, you're two doors away from them.

kailangan namin magpractice ng dance para sa performance kinabukasan.

we're staying kela Charles and sila Charles nasa bahay niyo.

pagkatapos namin kumpletuhin yun sayaw pumunta kami sainyo,

then we danced,

and danced,

and danced..

until i'm too exhausted to stand up.

around 5 umalis na sila Charles, Natasha, and others sa bahay niyo.

tayong tatlo na lang ng kuya mo natira then your parents

we thought about playing video games.

and so we did.

umalis din sila kuya, mama at papa.

tayo nanamang dalawa naiwan dito.

ayos lang sakanila na dalawa lang tayo sa bahay,

they left us too many times sa bahay na tayong dalawa lang.

so pagkaalis nila,

naglaro lang tayo.

more than three hours,

and you still enjoyed your time playing with me.

kahit na talo ka, you still wait for me to finish

ewan ko,

but I can't forget the little things you do,

December 22,2019
year end party socializing

you wore your suit and tie,

you looked good,

in my sight, you always do.

i was quiet and felt lonely that time.

kasi andaming tao,

i know people but i don't feel like talking to any of them.

i sat alone sa table,

you and others were sitting with someone else,

it's fine sakin kasi it's socializing you should all socialize, right?

i went out to go to washroom to avoid the noises.

but pagbalik ko.

you're sitting beside my seat.

“dito ka na lang.” sabi mo habang naturo sa upuan na nasa tabi mo.

“baliw, diyan naman talaga ako.” sinabi ko sakanya.

he sat with me.

you sat with me.

i felt lonely but why?

why do i feel like whenever you're around it's always complicated?

I don't know if i should be either sad or happy.

but all i know is,

you made me happy that time.

masaya ako pagkasama kita,

after ng party.

we all went inside the car,

and naiwan si kuya.

and you suddenly said—

“jacket mo??”

i suddenly panicked.

i called kuya and he said he got it.

but to think of it,

naalala mo na may jacket akong suot?

eh ako nga di ko naalala yon e HAHAHAHAHA

do you remember the little things i do, too?

it might be nothing but i don't why i still remember that.

thank you for making me happy that day,

yun dating wala lang sakin,

dahilan na ng ngiti at sakit ko.