My Life With Chronic Illness

I'm depressed again

Hey everyone! Welcome back! I am finally on Christmas break! Yay!

I have some good news: Since this summer I applied to go into a school of ministry. I didn't hear anything back from them so I went to college in the fall. Well the school of ministry emailed me last week and I have an interview tomorrow to see if I get accepted to go into a school of ministry!❤️I am very excited and really hope I get in!❤️❤️

Here's an update on me:

Mentally:

Honestly, I am not doing good at all. During the day I feel okay mentally but as the day goes on I get to feeling more and more sad. I don't know why I am sad I just feel so sad. I mean it's Christmas time, I am out of school, and I should feel happy but, I don't. It's been happening a lot, pretty much everyday. I might be getting depressed again. Which is really frustrating because life is hard enough not depressed. But I truly think I am chemically depressed. I just feel so sad, numb, empty, and I just want to cry. So yeah, I think I am depressed.

Physically:

My pain has been horrible. I have been seeing my chiropractor three times a week and sometimes it helps going and sometimes it doesn't. I am having to wear my tens unit all the time. I see new pain doctor next week which will hopefully help. But yeah, it's horrible.

I am really not okay.
I feel horrible.
But I will keep going.
I am sorry if this is depressing but this is truly how I feel.

Thank you for reading! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️