Catching Feelings [OFF FOR A WHILE]

PROLOG

"The sun comes up on another morning.
My mind never wakes up without you on it.

And it's crazy to me, I even see you in my dreams.
Is this meant to be? Could this be happening to me?

We were best of friends since we were this high.
So why do I get nervous every time you walk by?
We would be on the phone all day.

Now I can't find the words to say to you.
Now what am I supposed to do?

Could there be a possibility.
I'm trying to say what's up, but cause I'm made for you, and you for me.

Baby now its time for us.
Tryna keep it all together.
But enough is enough.
They say we're too young for love, but I'm catching feelings.

In my head we're already together.
I'm good alone but with you I'm better.

I just wanna see you smile.
You say the word and I'll be right there.
I ain't never going nowhere.

I'm just tryna see where this can take us.
Cause everything about you girl is so contagious.

I think I finally got it done.
Now all that's left to do now is get out the mirror, and say it to her

Should I tell her how I really feel?
Or should I move in close or just be still?

Cause if I take a chance and I touch her hand, will everything change?
How do I know if she feels the same?"
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Mereka berdua saling bertolak belakang.

Salah satu diantara mereka berdua -out of my type-, banget.

Si A ini romantis, clever, full of surprise, treat me like a princess. Pertahanan hati gue sebagai cewek, luluh juga dong. But yeah, gak jarang nyakitin gue untuk kesekian kalinya.

Beda dengan si B yang konyol, clumsy, not such of a good boy. But yeah, dia bisa banget bikin gue nangis.. saking banyaknya ketawa.

Tapi salah satu di antara mereka...

Kenapa dia kayak gini?

Apa iya ini semua salah gue?

Gue yang salah dari awal?

Mungkin semua orang liat gue yang salah.

Tapi ini bukan salah gue, 'kan?

Ini semua udah garis hidup yang ga bisa dipungkiri lagi, 'kan?

Semua orang liat, gue bego, gue bodo, gue udah sia-siain apa yang harusnya gue terima.

Tapi, kenapa... saat gue nyoba ngebuka diri dia malah gini?

Disaat gue udah falling deep, dia masih tetep nyakitin gue?

Disaat dia nyakitin gue untuk yang kesekian kali... kenapa orang itu tetep ada?

Sometimes, the love doesn't as sweet as white chocolate.

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[Kamis, 3 Maret 2011; 14.00 WIB]

"Kamu ing--,"

Cowok lugu itu naruh telunjuknya di bibir gue, menatap tepat di manik mata seolah mengiyakan pertanyaan yang belum sempat gue lontarkan.

"Iya? Bener?" tanya gue dengan pipi yang udah jadi tomat, gue yakin.

"What else?" satu buket bunga yang cowok itu pegang muncul dihadapan gue, penuh kejutan. Selalu. "Happy 3rd Monthsary, silly."

"Kamu inget?" tanya gue sekali lagi.

Cowok berpostur tinggi dan lugu itu mengangguk yakin sambil tersenyum kecil.

Spontan, gue menutup mulut gue yang udah otomatis nganga.

'OMG OMG. Selalu, penuh kejutan,' teriak gue dalem hati.

Gue memutar badan gue sendiri, melompat-lompat di tempat, eum, ralat.

Melompat-lompat kecil hingga memisahkan beberapa jarak, sampai beberapa mata pasang menatap aneh ke arah gue yang udah kayak orang gila di tengah jalan.

BAM!

Perlahan, semua memori itu hilang.

No, bukan 'itu' aja, semua, semua hilang.

Sirna dalam detik demi detik, dan semua mulai rusak, secara perlahan.

-i'm sleep in silence, living in a world of noise-