Poems

Trusting you is wrong

I trusted you
I trusted you so much
So much I didn't trust my own thoughts
I thought you were my one
I thought I was your one
The only one I was
Was the one getting hurt
And abused
And mentally twisted
You sick fuck
Thinking you just saying
I'm sorry baby
I didnt mean to baby
Just so you can yell at me
And say I'm worthless
I'm worthless and useless
Used only for my body
My body
My body the only thing you saw perfection in
Not my mind
My mind
My mind you thought was disgusting
Needs meds
Needs help
Go
Go to the mental hospital
You need it
You need it
The only thing you need
The only thing you need is
Happiness
Please
Please happiness
Give it back
I trusted
I thought I trusted
You
I was wrong
Wrong by the way you did nothing but
Make me think I'm not pretty
Not pretty enough to wear makeup
Not pretty enough to do my hair
Not pretty enough to
To wake up

The mide state i was in writing this poem wasnt the best. I was in a rut about how my ex just bashed me so much but i blocked it all out thinking it was normal and it was just love. So when we broke up and i realized how much he was pulling me away from who i am i died inside and got mad and wanted to just know that i am me and nobody could change that anymore.