Lover // Kobe Paras

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TYPOS, MISPELLED AND WRONG GRAMMARS AHEAD

"ang sabi mo magkaibigan lang kayo, e bakit may pa ganito?" inis na tanong ko sa kanya na halatang naiinis na din.

"we are friends celene, its you who put malice every damn time you saw a picture of us. Mas naniniwala ka pa sa ibang tao instead of your own boyfriend" matigas pero kalamdo na sabi nito. Nagpipigil lang ito alam ko.

"pero mas naniniwala ka pa sa kanya kesa sakin" sigaw ko.

The past weeks, kobe and i often fought. I mean i get it, he has a lot friends, di ko naman siya pinagbabawalan makipag friends sa babae pero this atenean girl is different sa mga babae na naging friends niya. Hindi ako naniniwalang friends lang sila, when the pictures on the social media tells otherwise. Halatang may gusto itong babae sa jowa ko, but kobe insist that the girl doesnt like him and only sees him as a friend. Friend my ass.

We've been dating na for almost a year, who would've of thought diba. We were happy until this woman came, we started fighting na because of how close they are. I am a woman and i know pag gusto ng babae ang isang lalaki, kakaiba ang girls' instinct at ayoko magbulagbulagan. Sila thirdy nagpakilala dito and everytime na lalabas si kobe with ateneans, the girl was always with them. Pero pag nakakasama ako at nandoon ang babae, i always make sure na di siya makakalapit kay kobe. Pero most of the time talaga di ako nakakasama dahil marami akong school works.

"nakakainis ka, you dont want me to be friends with other guys tapos ikaw you can?" i continue arguing with him.

"because they like you celene, i cant just let you be friends sa guys na gusto ka" inis na sabi niya, he wasnt yelling pero bawat salita mararamdaman mo yung pagkainis.

Naiinis din ako dahil paulit ulit nalang, but i have no choice kundi makipag away. I tried to do it in a nice way, yung nakiusap ako na layuan yung babae pero di siya nakinig kaya here we are, weve been fighting na every week pag sumasama siya sa mga ateneans lalo na ang varsity nito. Means kasama si Tyler don, they're friends na. May kumalat sa social media na tyler and i dated way back highschool, some of Tyler's friends confirmed it, pero di na kami nagsalita pareho about dun.

"they dont like me romantically, they like to be friends with me!" sagot ko pabalik, totoo naman kasi, ang OA lang niya talaga.

"its still the same, they want to be friends with you para mapalapit sila sayo" inirapan ko ito, ang kulit niya.

"what about you? Bakit nakikipagfriends ka pa din sa babaeng gusto ka?" nakaarkong kilay na tanong ko.

Natahimik ito sandali "she doesnt like" mahinang sabi nito. Hinang hina akong naupo at sumandal sa sofa sa condo niya.

Pumikit ako "bullshit kobe. When you told me to stay away from ricci, i did. Pero bakit ikaw, when i told you to do that, nagmatigas ka?" nanginginig na tanong ko.

Hindi siya nagsalita kaya i continue to talk "pagod na ko, im tired of school works na nga tapos im tired pa for always choosing that girl's side over mine. Ako girlfriend mo oh, you should listen to me at dapat pinapanigan mo ko." naiiyak na sabi ko sa kanya, i didnt bother to open my eyes to see his reaction.

"kasi if you want to make this relationship last, makikinig ka sakin like how I always listen to you. Sakin ka naman makinig" pagmamakaawa ko.

Narinig ko siyang huminga ng malalim kaya napadilat ako. Lumapit siya sa akin at umupo sa tabi ko, he copied the way i sit on his sofa.

"im sorry" mahinang bulong nito pero enough para marinig ko.

I didn't speak, nakatungo lang ako, i don't want to see him like this, alam kong halo halo din ang nararamdaman niya just like me at alam kong oagod na din siya sa continuous fights namin.

"im sorry for making you feel this way celene, I'll stay away from her na" he continue to talk but i paid no attention na.

Hindi ko na alam ang dapat kong isipin as of the moment na ganto kami pareho. My mind was clouded with different thoughts, mostly bad thoughts and these thoughts were pushing me to do something na ikakasira ko pero alam kong ikaaayos namin once na naging okay kami ulit.

"you can do whatever you want kobe" matigas na sabi ko dito.

Naramdaman ko na napa ayos ito nang upo at tiningnan ako. "what are you saying? Lets fix this celene" pagmamakaawa nito. But i had enough.

I look at him "We tried kobe. And I tried na intindihin ka pero walang nangyayari at pagod na ko sa ganoong set up natin. After we fought, magbabati tayo at mag aaway ulit over the same topic. I want us to last pero kung puro ganito, we wont last"

"hey, i promise you na lalayuan ko na siya and i will listen na to you" sagot nito.

Gusto ko makinig sa kanya dahil alam kong gagawin niya yung mga pinapangako niya but nahihirapan nako.

Tumayo ako at kinuha yung bag ko sa sahig "I'll go home na" akma na sana akong aalis nang yakapin ako nito mula sa likod.

"please, dont leave me na ganito tayo. Lets fix this before you go home" pinipilit kong makawala sa yakap niya pero mahigpit ito.

"we will talk na lang tomorrow kobe, pagod na ko, please let me rest" i continue to wiggle from his hug.

Nang mapagod ako ay tumigil nako pero di pa rin niya ko pinapakawalan. Mahabang katahimikan ang namayani samin.

"kobe" tawag ko dito.

Naramdaman kong hinalikan nya yung ulo ko "hmm"

"remember, nung huli kong makaawa kay tyler to take me back, i was drunk that night tapos binuhat mo ko  you told me something"

Matagal siyang di nakasagot, iniisip siguro kung ano yon. "ah, yes"

"actually di ko siya naaalala, but ricci told me what you said that night" sbai ko.

"Which is? " tanong nito

"when im sober and i told you to let me go, you will let me go" Naramdaman kong unti unting lumuluwag yung yakap niya sakin kaya humarap ako sa kanya at kita pa rin ang pagkagulat niya.

"im sober and im asking you now kobe to let me go"