Isaac's POV
I'm looking at my babies - Gabriel and Michael. They're maybe boys but they look more like Genesis. As I look at them I felt betrayed.
As my babies grow up I know I'll be gone. I'm not going to stay for much longer. At least I know I told Genesis, I love her so much and I saw her gave birth yesterday.
I'm Dying
Hard to believe but I'm Dying - Slowly Dying. I have a brain tumor and I'm still in the process of taking the shock. I love her but I can't just say to her that I'm dying, I don't want to tell her, I don't want her to have pity in me.
Lumapit ako sa pintuan at kumatok ng tatlong beses, may lumabas na nurse at sinabi ko sa kanya na dalhin ang mga anak namin sa kwarto ni Genesis at um-oo naman sila. Tinungo ko ang daan papuntang kwarto ni Genesis ng makaramdam ako ng pagkahilo at pagsakit ng ulo ko.
Bumagsak ako sa malamig na sahig at nawala ang paningin ko.
Nagising ako sa isang puting kwarto. I'm sure I'm inside on one of the rooms inside this hospital. Umupo ako at napatingin sa pinto ng mag-bukas iyon. My doctor Dr. Mendez went it holding his clipboard and I know his examining the records.
"Mr. Gerverro" I heard disappointment in his voice "Yes?" I ask him coldness in my voice "I examine your records and all I can see is that the tumor is getting bigger" I shook my head. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Nakita ko ang mga damit ko sa couch, Tinanggal ko ang IV at Dextrose na nakatusok sa ugat ko sa kamay.
"Mr. Gerverro, Just lay in there! Can't you see? Meron ng taning ang buhay mo! You only have a hundred days" tumingin ako sa kanya "Sino ka para sabihin sa akin na meron na lang akong tatlong buwan na mabuhay? At kung mamamatay man ako bukas gusto ko makasama ang pamilya ko." sabi ko at kinuha ang mga damit ko "You still have a chance to live Mr. Gerverro" tumigil ako at matalim na tumingin sa kanya "You can do the surgery and you have 55% of living" sabi niya.
"But still I have 45% of dying. I may have 55% of living but I can't just ignore the fact that I'm nearly dying. I'm going to stick into my plan of staying in my family's side" sabi ko at pumasok ng bathroom. Ayoko marinig ang ano pa man ang sabihin niya.
Mamamatay rin naman ako, I'm saving my time for my family at hindi ko yun sasayangin sa walang kasiguraduhang surgery.
Nagbihis ako at lumabas ng hospital room na iyon at nagtuloy sa kwarto ng asawa ko. Pagbukas ko ng pinto ay nakita ko si Genesis at ngumiti sa akin "Sweetie! Saan ka galing?" sabi niya sa akin "May pinuntahan lang ako Sweetie. Kamusta na ang pakiramdam mo?" pagsisinungaling ko sa kanya "Okay na ako" sabi niya, Lumapit ako sa kanya at hinawakan ang kamay niya.
"Mahal kita Genesis - Mahal na mahal" sabi ko at hinalikan ang kamay niya.
2 months later
I still have 39 days and 8 hours and 56 minutes before I die. Since I know I'm dying I'm much aware of my time. Bumalik na ako sa trabaho a month after my babies 1st month.
I'm waiting for someone. Someone that I know will come for my wife.
Jeremy Santos, The man that my wife loved first before me. I close my eyes and breathe deeply, I opened my eyes, stood up and stand in front of my floor to ceiling window to see the metropolitan as I wait for the man I called.
I again closed my eyes and thought for my wife's smile. I let my tear cascade my cheeks for them will also miss my wife's childish side, attitude and every single cell in my wife's wholeness.
I heard the elevator opened and I look back I saw the man I’ve been waiting for - Jeremy Christian Santos. He look serious, jaw clenched and he stands so dignified. I sighed. “What do you want? I’m in a hurry so ~” I cut him off as early as I could “I’m dying …” natahimik siya at nanatili ang paningin niya sa akin.
Tumalikod ako at hinarap ulit ang bintana kung saan kita ko ang kabuuan ng metropolitan “I would never see my kids grow up and I wouldn’t be there to witness how my wife will raise them” I sighed “I wanted to be there but I can’t these disease is slowly killing me, I only have 39 days to spent with my family” I heard him take a deep breath “What so you want me to do?” hinarap ko siya.
“Catch Genesis, I’ll let her go so then you can have her and love her ‘till death do you part” hindi ako kaya pero kailangan sa oras na mangyari iyon ay wala na rin naman ako pero ang sakit parin.
If Genesis would be happy with him so be it. By the time Genesis and Jeremy would be together, I'm not breathing anymore and I'm on my way to the heaven.
Jeremy’s POV
“Catch Genesis, I’ll let her go so then you can have her and love her ‘till death do you part” napanganga ako sa sinabi niya. Nakatalikod pa rin siya sa akin kaya't hindi niya nakikita ang reaction ko.
He wants me to catch Genesis? Is he crazy? Ginawa rin yan ni Daniel pero ano? Hindi siya bumalik sa akin instead he got to a relationship with this man I'm talking to right now. "I can't do that" sabi ko sa kanya dahilan kung kaya't hinarap niya ako "Is it okay to you to see her broken?" he knows my weakness and that's Genesis.
I inhale deeply and let it out. I look at him. "But still Isaac, ayaw na sa akin ni Genesis. I can't force her to love me again even though I want to" I shook my head "You won't force her Jeremy. Just show her the Jeremy she know, the Jem that she loved almost 6 years ago" I look at him "the Jem she knew and loved before I'am. Kasi Jeremy ikaw naman talaga ang mahal niya, the day you left she followed you but too late you are on board that time she came" he smiled bitterly "I was on the airport that time at nagpapaalam ako sa papa ko dahil aalis na naman siya ulit for a business trip and I saw her in Daniel's arms crying because you left" hindi ako makahinga sa mga naririnig kong kwento mula kay Isaac.
Ako ang nang-iwan? She ran after me? I lost my everything 6 six years ago? Kung hindi ko tinuloy siguro ako ang kasama ni Genesis ngayon at wala sigurong Isaac sa buhay namin. Ako siguro yung ama ng kambal ni Genesis and their name would be Jerard Frans and Jerald Francis.
I'm wishing right now that I can go back to time and change everything I've done to hurt the feelings of someone who loves me the most pero hindi pwede dahil gastusin ko man ang bilyong-bilyong pera ng kompanya namin ay hindi makakaya noon ang gumawa ng time machine dahil marami iyong trial and error.
"I'm not rushing you, Jeremy. But I want your answer tomorrow" sabi niya sa akin without glancing at me and continue to admire his carpet floor, I look at him but he's not doing the same "I'll catch Genesis." I answered him and that moment he look at me and smiled bitterly "Thank you" sabi niya at hinarap ulit ang bintana niya kung saan makikita mo ang buong metro.
"I'm doing this so she won't be alone, Na sa pagkakataong ito ay magiging Santos na siya at magiging masaya siya sa piling ng lalaking una niyang minahal" madrama man pakinggan pero alam ko kung saan siya nanggagaling.
Mahal niya si Genesis pero malapit na yung oras niya para makasama ang Diyos. 39 days? Isang buwan na lang niya makakasama ang pamilyang binuo niya.
"Pumapayag ako, hindi dahil sa nalalapit mong kamatayan Isaac pero pumayag ako kasi mahal ko si Genesis at hanggang ngayon siya pa rin ang mahal ko" bumaling ang tingin niya sa akin "Alam ko Jeremy, hindi ako tanga para hindi mapansin yun" sabi niya sa akin "Kaya ikaw ang hiningian ko ng ganitong tulong kasi alam kong gagawin para kay Genesis" natulala ako dahil kung ganun simula pagbalik namin at una ulit naming pagkikita ay alam niyang may gusto parin ako kay Genesis.
"Kasi Jeremy, Parehas lang tayo. Ang kaso lang magkaiba tayo, Ako kukunin ng maaga pero Ikaw magtatagal ka pa kasama ... siya" I saw fear and sadness in his eyes. Makes me realized that, that would be the exact feeling once I knew my death is coming.
I'm confused but I know this is Isaac's Dying Mission.
