The little book of Queen Weeks

The way I am

Prompt: insecurity
Roger's POV
I felt so ugly up to the other three, I knew I was supposed to be the pretty one but my body wasn't the prettiest since I got pregnant. They were all so skinny and beautiful and I looked so... pregnant. I hated it.

"Alright, Roger and John at the back please" the photographer instructed us and I was thankful he put us behind Freddie and Brian, it could hide my tummy. I tried to tuck in behind Freddie as much as I could but Mick caught on to what I was trying to do and had me take a step backwards so he could see me.

"I don't want to be seen" I mumbled and Freddie looked back at me then quickly lowered his eyes and turned away as we were told to cross our arms over our chests.

No, no! They'll see the flab on my arms! I thought so I lowered them as much as I could and couldn't help but smile as John rested his hand on my wrist.

"Rog, you look beautiful, stop doing that" he said and kept hold of my wrist as the picture was taken then I was asked to go in the front, "don't worry, babe" John whispered and fluffed up my hair but I was really worrying.

On instinct, I crossed my arms over my stomach to hide it and felt a hand in my hair, it was quite big so I assumed it was John, and he was just gently massaging my scalp with his fingers which he knew relaxed me a lot. It did work a little but my nerves were through the roof when I was asked to drop my arms and let this girl put her hand on my chest. "Do I-do I have to?" I asked and Mick nodded.

"It would look great but if you're really not comfortable then that's fine" he said and I shook my head, looking at the young girl getting her rings on.

"I-yeah... I'll do it" I said reluctantly and just tried to relax as the girl placed her hand on my chest and the photo was taken. I must've looked quite miserable in it but I got it over and done with and got on with the next position.

We did quite a few where I was always trying to hide my body but the last one really got me, Freddie requested just one more that was not to be put out on print and the three were whispering to each other. "What are you-?" I started as I saw John drop to his knees and Freddie took my hand as Brian held my waist.

"You look beautiful, baby" Brian said quietly and I put my hand in his hair as I felt a pair of lips on my stomach and a flash went off.

He was right, I did look beautiful.