drapetomania | 5sos

can't sleep? me either

song of the day; hold on till may by pierce the veil

[a/n yo yooo comment chicken nugget if you're reading this ayee]

unedited oops

t e s s 

i stirred beneath the sheets, my eyes flickering open and i sighed.

i couldn't stop thinking about how nathan is going. is he okay? is he happy? is he hurt? is he missing me?

i wanted him to be alright so badly, i guess all i can do is hope. i just don't want him to be sad. i wondered whether anybody else missed their siblings or parents or pets. i sure as hell did.

i turned on my side and watched ashton climb into emily's bunk, pulling her into his bare chest. i heard a giggle, assuming it was emily. they were rather close, two people you wouldn't expect to be. i guess ash sees a different side of her.

i yawned, my hands covering my mouth. my eyes adjusted to whoever spoke, "can't sleep?" michael said, below a whisper. i shook my head no, my back against the thin mattress.

"me either." he said, his arm slouching over and running his hand along the floor. "let's can't sleep together."

butterflies erupted in my stomach and i tried to fight the smile that was forming on my face but miserably failed, i nodded and giggled as i watched him crawl on his hand and knees towards my bunk.

i didn't realize how much i craved him until this moment as he slivered his arms around my torso, his chin atop my messy hair and my head against his chest.

all i could hear was my heart beating furiously in my chest in sync with michael's.

i was happy he couldn't see my face, i was smiling like a fool and if he did, i thought that he would think it was weird or something.

it hurt a little, to be honest. loving someone this much, it hurt my chest.

it hurt more that he didn't know, he didn't know the effect he had one me, he didn't know that i spent everyday thinking of him and smiling fondly at him and loving every inch of him.

i wanted to know why it hurt me more than it should have.

god, i hate feelings.

he tangled our legs together and came down to my level, his eyes locking with mine. a small smile appeared on his lips. he was so beautiful, he smelled of vanilla, his smile made me feel like i could walk on water.

i wondered what he thought of me, what he saw when he looked at me.

his hand came to my cheek, his thumb stroking tiny circles in my skin.

"you're really great, you know that?" he complimented, his eyes bright in the dim lighting.

"thank you for thinking that but i really think that's you." i argued, it was true, though. michael was always cheery and funny and so fun to be around and he never failed to make me smile.

he smiled ear to ear and nuzzled his head into the crook of my neck. i hugged his body as he hugged mine, feeling his heart bat against mine.

how the hell did he pick me to be his best friend out of seven billion people? but shit, i'm so glad he's in my life.

"what would i do without you?" i whispered, playing gently with his bright red hair that was almost painful to look at.

"you'd probably be locked in your room, playing call of duty." he laughed, i did too because his laugh is just so damn contagious.

"that's sadly true." i admitted, his hair tickling my jaw and neck.

a comfortable silence passed between us.

"night, mike."

a loud laugh escaped his mouth. "that rhymed."

he pressed his plump lips against my forehead, letting them linger before cuddling further against me, tightening his grip around my waist. "goodnight, tess."

 my face flushed, still feeling the burning of his touch on my forehead. his body hugging against me made me feel so secure, so protected, like nothing could ever harm me or upset me. i liked to feel this way.

the things that boy does to me.

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[a/n hella short but i might update again later so see you soooon :-))))]