You left me

My name

My name is Clarke Griffin however that has not been spoken or heard of in years. That girl died along time ago and the person that replaces her is a broken replica living in the body of Clarke. I guess I lied when I said my name is Clarke Griffin she is who I envy, I am Wanheda the commander of death and queen of the grounders. The only one who commands this broken and heartless beast is Lexa.

If things had been different I would be Clarke and I would be happy with Lexa but every good thing is easily destroyed when least expected by those who once had a place in my heart. Skaikru too has not been seen or heard of in years. Before this I had been the representative of my people with 13 others one being Lexa herself but the communication from the 13th clan had stopped and in retaliation Lexa decided that I would be held captive and cut everyday so when Skaikru reconnected they could see the damaged they had caused. The punishment itself didn't hurt as much as the woman I loved and the people I had protected caused me this pain. I thought Bellamy would come as he was always there to save me hence the nickname princess another name I haven't heard in a long time... I was wrong about Bellamy.

It is hard to keep track of days when your trapped in a cell with no sunlight and the only people you had contact with was the one who cut you and the little girl who had to clean it up. She came one day, Lexa but to tell me that my punishment will worsen My heart cracked a little more it hurt more when she wouldn't even look me in the eyes " Lexa I forgive you " is the last words I spoke to her in 2 years and I regret them now.
After this I was a test subject for the grounders BioWare far along with testing my blood to create natblidas I had gone into cardiac arrest but they saved me after 3 years of hell they let me go cause lexa knew I wouldn't make it again I am still trapped in the walls of polis five years later. Unspeakable things have happened to me but I will always hope Bellamy will walk through those gates as he is the reason I will not leave for my freedom comes at the cost... his life

I sigh and leave my room now filled with the faces that i have not seen in years. I close my eyes and let my feet carry me to Lexa. I open the doors and I see an angry lexa and a face I thought I would never see again....
Bellamy