The hope that's left

I can(t)

Hey there
Whoever is listening
I'm not feeling the best
My mental state is the worst it's ever been
I can't think straight
I can't cry
I feel numb
Sad
Angry
Scared
It's mixed emotions that I guess I hid for a while
I'll wait it out
(Stay in one place)
(Stay away from sharp objects)
(Don't make too much noise or use a pillow to silence your screams)
(Open the window)
(Try to hold those feelings back)
(Regret how you keep letting her lead you on)
(Realize your unworthiness of anything)
(Talk to your best friend)
(Don't panic and end up hurting yourself like the last times)
(DON'T READ OR LISTEN TO ANYTHING THAT WILL TRIGGER YOU)
(Don't think about your wrapped around her finger)
(Lose yourself within your thoughts)
(DON'T BREAK DOWN)
(Ignore her)
(Call 9 and have him stay on call with you till you sleep)
(Talk to your best friend Tayl)
(Talk to your best friend Tayl)
(Talk to your best friend Tayl)
(Remind yourself of where you would be if you never met Tayl)
(Make sure while your lost,you don't hurt yourself)
(Breath without crying)
(Keep your hopes and your small ray of sun with you)
(Remember,shaking makes things worse so keep it to a minimum)