Runaway

09

After the long night we had to wake up early again the couple was back with their family . I saw a lady not to tall not to short with fair skin and strawberry blonde ringlets . A man attached to her hip tall a shaggy haircut brown hair , and bright blue eyes . The air around them smelled like crisp green apples . My mouth watered gently my tongue licked my lips . "All girls 14 to 16 please come down to the adoption room , " Echoed throughout the orphanage that was the day I thought I might have a chance to get adopted . My hope high although my self esteem and confidence lowered each time another child went in . Gender roles were not visible here no one came in ever asking for a specific gender . Normally it had always been an age , been that way forever . Sadly I wanted to cry when I get brought back . I always go through the same mindset. Am I not good enough? Is it because I am not like them ? .

I always sit on the old rugged roof , thinking about how I ended up on the streets alone . Every stupid motherfucking time I got sent back to this hell hole . Everyone broke my heart , shattered it then they all scattered it . Code red blood spilling from every bit of my heart , and my body . My cuts burn the longer I stay out on the roof while someone else downstairs is getting adopted . They won't be brought back because they are better than I ever would or will be . The temptation of jumping right now haunts my brain. Although Zach would be the only thing I live for at the moment . However good things never last , people change . Hell even Satan used to be an angel. "Think twice ," I whisper stareing straight at the sunset. Watching the pink and blue cotten candy clouds scattered across the horizon. I watched the diffrent shades of oranges blend softly together in perfect harmony.