My heart can't take this damage...
And the way I feel, can't stand it.
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I look at my phone, sure enough I had 5 missed calls, whoops.
"You alright?" Mar spoke up as he sat next to me.
"Of course not, Mar."
He nods. "Yeah... stupid question, my bad."
"I don't know how you guys put up with this shit, daily." Emma says shaking her head in disbelief.
"We don't have a choice." Mariano says looking out at the open water of the lake.
I nod in agreement. "I talked to Rio..."
"Yeah, I guessed since you're not still mad at me, well atleast I think you're not."
"I'm not... I just wish Rio didn't have to be such a dumbass, he should've came to us for help." I said shaking my head.
Emma's phone started to ring and she went and sat in the car as she talked to the person.
"Did you tell your dad?" Mar said looking at me.
"I had to, that's my family." I said sighing.
"Call him, tell him not to worry." Mar said handing me my phone.
"What?" I say hesitantly grabbing my phone.
"You heard me Isabella, tell him not to worry." He said insisting.
"Mar what did you do?" I say with a raised eyebrow.
"Just hurry up and call him, I'll explain after. Just tell him it's handled."
I call my dad, and say what Mar said to.
"Alright you better get to explaining because my Dad is questioning the shit out of me!"
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I get back to my house, it's now 4am.
I walk in and see my Dad drinking a coffee.
"What are you doing up?" I say as I close the door.
"Well after your phone call I couldn't sleep, speaking of - pick up ya damn phone."
I check my phone, of course there is missed calls.
"We need to have a talk, a serious, father to daughter talk." I say sitting down on the couch.
My dad raises an eyebrow and slowly sits across from me. "Mm, okay..."
"Now, I know you like to have a say in everything, but right now your going to sit there and listen, okay? Take this seriously, I mean it."
Manny leans back in the seat and folds his arms. "Okay miss attitude, get to talkin'."
"This shit between you and Miguel, stops. Now." I say sternly.
Manny laughs. "You're joking, right? I can't just snap my fingers and boom. I think it's you that needs to take this seriously, Bell."
"Miguel is being released."
"And I'm getting put in."
"No, you're not."
"How so? How can you possibly have 'handled' that." My Dad says clearly confused.
"Not me, Mariano."
"Who?"
I clear my throat. "My friend, Miguel's son, Mariano."
"Nah see this is where I know you're fucking playing with me." My dad says standing up.
"Sit down."
"You're friends with Miguel's son? Wow, WOW." My Dad says beginning to walk off.
"I SAID SIT DOWN." I say standing up as he stops in his tracks.
My Dad slowly turns around. "Excuse me?"
"Miguel's own son just got you a get out of jail free pass, and Pablo has a deal on the table for you, which Miguel himself has agreed to on his behalf. This is the beginning of a fresh start." I say as my Dad shakes his head.
"A fresh start." He says chuckling. "Do you know how stupid that sounds Isabella? I don't remember raising a dumbass. See I don't think you understa-"
"No, I don't think YOU understand. The only dumbass here is YOU. I can't lose you Dad, in any way. I pray to have a normal life like every other 17 year old girl I know but that's not possible and it's not my fault. I raised myself, while you sat in that office of yours because the gang is more important to you than your family. You're so fucking selfish, you don't understand how much pain I'm feeling because I was at risk of losing my father."
"I am not selfish Isabella I don't know who the fuck you think you're talking to like this. I've done nothing but care for you and your broth-"
"You killed Mariano's mom without hesitation, while I was standing in the same room. If you cared even the slightest god damn bit about me you would have AT LEAST made me leave, but no. You stood there and let her body drop as her blood splattered onto my face, like the careless person you are." I say bursting into tears as I walk out the door.
I hear my dad shouting my name but I ignore him, I just walk down the footpath until I could no longer hear his voice.
I called the one person I needed most at this time, my cousin Oscar.
"Wassup Cuz?" I hear through the phone as I break down into tears again.
I just want to go back to Toronto, away from this shit. I should have known this was a bad idea.
"Bell you there? Are you crying? Hey answer me" I hear through the phone as it slides out of my hand and onto the ground, my knees becoming weak as I drop to my knees, my tears were uncontrollable at this point.
My head becomes dizzy and now my entire body is weak.
I hear a voice call out to me and I fail to recognise who it is, my ears ring and I feel my body slowly drop as my vision goes black.
