Love Me For Me

Chapter 33

Tiffany POV

"So are you excited to be graduating." I handed my mom the bag of peppers she asked for as she got ready to make her spaghetti.

"Yeah, I guess so. Can't wait to leave here too." I joked.

We just got back from the store after being out all day. I ended up not going to prom and even not talking to Andre for a month.

It did hurt me that we both were ignoring each other for that long,but we was also to stubborn to talk to the other. Graduation was right around the corner and I was still leaving for New York.

"Fine, you ain't gotta stay with me boo."

I smiled. "Im gonna miss being here with you though. Coming home to you the days when you're not working."

"Awh well Im gonna miss you too. Although there is gonna be a good cause of you leaving though."

"And what's that."

"I could finally get my freak on.Heyyy!" She did a little dance while laughing.

"Eww ma. Who knew you like white men anyways."

"Hell I didn't think so either but chile he came to me. I guess he wanted to take a dip in this chocolate river you know what Im saying."

"Okay Im leaving." I said walking away.

"Where you going? I don't understand why you can have sex but I can't." She called out stopping me in my tracks.

I turned around slowly to see her smirking shaking her head while stirring the noodles.

"W-what are you talking about?"

"W-what are you talking about." She mocked me.

"Don't think I don't see the little changes in you. How your hips switch when you walking. Not to mention they getting wider too. Yup, you starting to fill out more huh? What you been doing because that's what I need." She laughed.

"I didn't think you'd notice."

"Honey Im your mother. I notice every little thing about you. But when I figured it out I went crazy. I was like oh lawd not my baby, take me Jesus. But I knew this was gonna happen sooner or later."

"Im sorry." I put my head down.

"It's okay. I just only hope you ain't do it in my house?"

"Mm mm."

"Yeah, let me find oeut."

There silence for about a minute before she spoke again.

"Well was it good?"

"Mom!"

"What? Is it bad that I wanted to know how my daughter felt for the first she had sex. I mean was it pleasurable for you, did you orgasm to fast, was he fast or slow with it? I just wanna know."

"Okay, Im leaving."

"Oh my gosh you're such a party pooper." She laughed.

I got up leaving the kitchen. I don't about anyone else but I think it's weird once your mom wants to start knowing about your sex life. It just makes me feel extremely uncomfortable.

I sat in the living room watchinh L&HH Hollywood for about ten minutes before there was a knock on the door. I got up to go answer but looked in the peep hole first before opening it.

It was Andre standing out there with his hands in his pocket looking around the porch. I backed away for a second and took a deep breath. This would be the first time I would be talking him.

I open the door slowly peeking my head out.

"Hey." He turned his attention to me and smiled.

"Hi. Can I come in?" I nodded before answering him.

"Yeah, sure."

I walked over to where I was previously sitting and moved the blanket out the way so he can sit down. He closed the door behind him before coming over.

"Damn, I haven't been in here in a minute." He chuckled as I did as well.

"I know."

Neither on of us talked, just watched the fight that was happening on the t.v for a mintue before he spoke.

"So you gon be leaving soon huh?"

I shook my head yes.

"Like right after graduation right?"

"About a week after."

"That's good. You ever been to New York before tho."

"No this will be my first time. Im excited for that."

"Yeah you'll like it. I used to be all the time. Almost every weekend before I moved here. It get crazy too though."

"Really?"

"Yeah but you'll be straight."

"Tiffany the food is ready." My mother walked in letting me know everything was done. She stopped when she saw Andre and smiled.

"Hey hon how are you?" She reached to give him a hug as he did too.

"Im good, just wanted to stop by and talk to Tiff."

"Oh okay, well I made some spaghetti if you would like to stay and have some?"

He looked over to me as if he was asking if it was okay. I smiled to let him know I was cool with it but he turned it down anyways.

"Nah, I was just leaving, thank you though Ms. Jones."

"Okay." She left back into the kitchen.

"Im about to head out alright. I got to go try on my gown and see if everything fits. I'll catch you later."

He hurried and rushed out without giving me a hug or I love you, or whatever else we usually did. He just left and that was it.

I sat back on the couch and tucked my knees to my chest while resting my head on my arms before letting it out.

I was crying because I knew that most of this was on me and I had somewhat caused it. I could have compromise but I was acting to selfish. It was too late now. I already committed to the college and there was no going back now.

"Sweetie what's wrong?"

I hadn't notice my mother had came back in the room as she sat next to me and held me.

"It's over between us. We're done, and it's all my fault."

"Honey, listen. Sometimes when we get into relationships, and them being our first, we really don't know what to expect out of them. Some of them last for a long time and some of them last for a week. So you can't be thinking that you guys are gonna be together for ever. Im not saying that it can't happen but maybe this is just....a test.

Sweetie god does everything for reason. So don't go thinking that you two are through because I know for a fact that you guys aren't over, trust me. This will come to past and when it do, you'll see him again. It'll all start coming together, I promise."

I shook my head taking in her words making sure I kept everything that was said locked in. My mother was always a woman of faith, so when she believed something was going to happen, I did too.

"Now Im going to get on the phone with my boo, so is there anything you would like before I start caking."

"Mom really. What would you know about 'caking' ." I laughed.

"I must have been doing it right enough to pull Shawn. Now Im going to my room and don't bother me, you might see something that's gon scare you." She winked before leaving.

I shook out the gross thought before going to make me a plate of spaghetti.

Tiffany in the m/m