collarbones || yang jeongin

explanation & end.

SUHYEON

A part of me is a bit sad that this story has ended, but im so happy alot of people seemed to enjoy reading it! I purposefully made collarbones less straight-forward than when i wrote thighgap, so here is the explanation !

From chapters 'isa' to 'anim,' the storyline is quite straightforward. When Jisung dies in chapter 'anim,' the voice that is controlling Jeongin is no longer being 'supressed' by Jisung's presence. Instead, now it has sole control over Jeongin.

The voice is the eating disorder inside of Jeongin's head.

After Jisung's death, Jeongin began to become plagued with his existence, because Jisung was able to achieve being skinny, while Jeongin was still 'stuck' and still 'fat'

In chapter 'sampu,' Jeongin is caught binging-purging, and apologizes. His mind sees this figure as Jisung, but it is actually just a cruel manifestation of this own thoughts.

'Labing-isa' has Jeongin begin to confront his disorder. It takes the form of himself, as it is a manifestation of his own thoughts.

'Labing-tatlo' shows how Felix also struggles with eating and losing weight, and confronts Jeongin that he knows what he and Jisung doing. Meaning Felix could have prevented Jisung's death.

Meaning Felix could have told the others, but didn't. I wonder why not?

The chapter ends with Felix gaining love and support from the other members, and Jeongin decides that feeling of love and happiness is something that he also wants to feel.

'Labing-apat' has Jeongin waking up in hospital after passing out at the end of chapter 'sampu.' Jeongin got that feeling he wanted to experience. However, the voice decides to come back, and convince Jeongin that the members were just lying.

When he asked what the voice meant, it replied with; "Because those who are also falling apart can't piece you back together." What it meant with this saying is: the other members are also struggling with something that they won't tell the other members, much like how Jeongin is.

Finally, the last chapter. Let's do a full analysis?

What Jeongin didn't know, wouldn't hurt him.

Means exactly what it writes. What Jeongin didnt know, cant hurt him.

The tears hidden behind a mask of smiles.

References to the struggles of the other members that they concealed behind a mask of smiles.

The hidden rage subdued to silence.
The growing bones behind baggy clothes.
The spinning vision as blood escaped the body.

Different emotions struggles the other members had/have.

The medication pumping into Jeongin prevented him from knowing.

Jeongin is still in the hospital, getting treatment for his eating disorder.

"It's all his goddamn fault that Jisung is gone!"

"I've noticed you've slimmed down Jeongin, you look alot better!"

"I'm a bit busy now Jeongin. Bother me later."

Different things the other members have said. Some said to Jeongin, some to other members(the first line)

Fake smiles and loud voices plague the weak soul of Yang Jeongin.

Jeongin is surrounded by fake smiles/emotions from his other members, and the loud voice of his eating disorder

"THESE MEDICATIONS WON'T SILENCE ME. I REFUSE TO BE DROWNED OUT."

"I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU. EVEN IF YOU WANT ME GONE."

"I FOUGHT BONE AND NAIL FOR THIS BODY. IT IS MINE."

The eating disorder fighting against the treatment Jeongin is receiving. The claim of never leaving him is due to eating disorders never truly disappearing from one's thoughts. "I fought bone and nail" is my changing of the original "fought tooth and nail" because the illness gradually ate away and affected his body.

"YANG JEONGIN, YOU'RE MINE."

Lastly, the disorder staking claim. Even if Jeongin recovered, it will always be there. It refuses to part with him. Jeongin is the illnesses 'possession.'

Hopefully this made this story a bit more understandable !! Thank you so much for the love& support ive been receiving on this book! ❤️

As for Felix.... book 3? 😉

Till next time !

-suhyeon