When Im laying on my bed at 11pm and I need to get rid of everything that's going around in my mind so that I can actually get some decent sleep time...
I've been distancing myself from Finn as much as I can lately, because I thought that if I didn't do that right now I would end up falling for him. However, I find myself looking at him from afar anywhere we are together and I've been noticing things that I didn't see when I was up close.
He is really sweet with his nephew, like really really sweet, and looks at him with adoration, and that made me think of this post I saw on instagram:
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Like, I just look at him and wonder how is he so caring and at the same time have this careless facade.
Also every time that I look for him in a crowd, he also turns to look at me but he doesn't do anything else, and while I want to keep my distance, during those moments I think "Why don't you come? Why don't you talk to me? Why do you just stare? Talk to me damn!"
Lastly, I listened to this song in spanish and I think it portrays how I feel about him at the moment. On that song a man is telling a woman to fall in love with someone else, and in english it would be something like this: "Fall in love with someone else, replace me Because I'm not able to forget you Please help me with the pain, ignore me That I'll be better without talking to you Give me an excuse to hate you, because on my own I wasn't able to So please Fall in love with someone else"
Those lyrics get to me so perfectly. I just want him to fall in love with someone else, so that I can finally forget about him.
