(Demus) The Truth Hidden in Lies

Fear

Quick Warning Before I Start! There will be mention of past/present abuse, mental and physical, and major panic attacks! Also self-hate will be mentioned as well! (Also Unsympathetic Virgil! Don't like it? Then please leave cause I'd hate to cause anyone any discomfort!) Enjoy with caution!

Deceits Point of View

     I carefully made my way downstairs. Quickly I went into the kitchen to grab something to eat. Before I could even grab anything from the top cupboard I heard a voice behind me.

     "Deceit..?" I nearly jumped out of my skin when I heard it.

     "Y-Yeah..?" I responded closing the cupboard refusing to look at them. Out of nowhere they pinned me against the wall so I couldn't move. My eyes were still closed from when they pinned me so I slowly opened them. When I did my mind went from slight to uncontrollable panic. It was Virgil. My thoughts began running out of control.

     Did I do something? I don't think I did... But I must've for him to be acting like this! Why is he even here? I thought he left... I really must've messed up for him to have come here! I thought he said he wasn't coming back after last time! What did I do?!

     My thoughts were interrupted by me realizing Virgil was shouting at me. But I couldn't hear him... Why couldn't I hear him?! Wait was he saying my name..? I think he is... But why is he saying my name? Wait what's he gonna do?! He always does something! And now I'm not even Responding to him! He's probably pissed at me! Shit shit shit shit SHIT! His grip tightened on me wrists until they hurt and he dug his nails into my skin. I gritted my teeth. I wanted to tell him to stop, to push him off of me but for some reason I couldn't move! I couldn't speak! I could only watch the fiery in his eyes. Eventually, I could hear what he was saying. I wish I couldn't though...

     "Deceit! You little shit! Why the hell did you show up in the light sides area! I thought I told you to stay away from there! Your only gonna cause Thomas and the others distress, you greedy little liar!" Virgil yelled out of anger. I wanted to say something but I couldn't. Dammit why can't I talk?! Virgil continued to yell at me and the angrier he got the tighter his grip on my wrists got. Eventually his nails drew blood. Seeing he couldn't do anything more with just his grip he decided to throw me onto the ground next to the cupboards my head hitting one of the handles causing me to go into a daze. 

     "Deceit..." It was muffled but I swore I heard someone. "Deceit..!" Who's..? "Deceit!" 

    My eyes shot open and I sat straight up in my bed. "Deceit are you okay?" I quickly backed up against the wall next to my bed.  "Deceit... I need you to breath for me, okay?" Only then did I realize how jagged my breathing was. "I need you listen to me, okay? Focus on my voice." Focus on his voice. I looked up from my knees shakely. When did I even put my knees up? "That's it... Just focus on me... Okay?" Slowly I managed to even out my breathing and calm down. "Can I touch you?" I nodded slowly. He got on my bed reaching up and pulling my hands away from my hair. "Do... Do you want to talk about it?" I Just shook my head looking away from him. "That's alright, you can tell me when you're ready. Okay? But I do need you to answer one question for me, okay? Is this the reason you've been so distant lately?" That's when I broke and basically jumped into a hug crying into his shoulder. I could tell he wasn't expecting it, for it took him a second to realize what was happening. Eventually though, he hugged me back, holding me close protectively. 

     "I-I'm s-sorry..." I managed to choke out.

    "What are you apologizing for? You can't control it." Remus stated the last part like it was a fact. 

    "I should be able to... There's no reason I should be reacting like this..." When I said that Remus pulled me from the hug and made me look at him. 

    "Now you listen to me Deceit Sanders. You have every right to be reacting this way." 

    "I should stronger! I'm Thomas' self-preservation for goodness sake! I shouldn't be so weak!" Remus pulled me into a hug after I said that and whispered,

    "I don't care what you represent, everyone is allowed to cry."