(Demus) The Truth Hidden in Lies

Why don't you see what I see?

WARNING: Abuse(Mental), talking bad about oneself, Unsympathetic Virgil, Panic Attacks, and all that good stuff.

Pov. Deceit 1st Person

     We just stayed there, the hug not ending until my crying stopped. I hated him seeing me like that. It was so stupid, I shouldn't have panicked like that in front of him nonetheless! It was nice though... Wait... No! I can't think that! I know what it leads to so why am I doing it again! I can't fall for someone again... I've already learned my lesson with love...

    Pretty soon it was morning. I don't remember falling asleep. Then again I don't remember a lot of things. I look over to find a sleeping Remus next to me, he looked so at peace when he was asleep. As quietly as I could I carefully got up from the bed as to not wake up Remus. I made my way downstairs quietly as I could to not wake anyone up who was still asleep. It wasn't early by any means, well at least for me. It was 8:00am. To the others it was way too early to be up, well most of them. Virgil is usually up at this time, so all I can do is hope he'll stay in his room for the time being... But am I ever that lucky? 

     When I reach the kitchen I can see Virgil there and I panic at first, but I decide to suck it up and go anyway. Maybe he'll ignore me, hopefully. "Snake face." I sighed of course I couldn't be that lucky. I turned to him in response. "What are you doing here? The dark sides have a kitchen as well..." When I looked away he laughed at me. "Your scared aren't you?" I stayed silent which only made him laugh more. "You are! God that's pathetic! Self preservation is scared of the people he lived with his entire life!" I flinched slightly when he said the last sentence. But even with Anxiety's constant insults I made myself grab some leftovers and quickly left. Though the last thing Anxiety said felt like I got stabbed in the chest, "Why does Thomas even need you?" 

     I reappeared in my room and checked to make sure Remus had left, which he did. Then, I let myself fall apart. After a minute my anxiety got the better of me. Anxiety's words replayed in my head over and over again, I couldn't stop it. My breathing was becoming more and more shallow. I knew that I needed to get someone to help but I didn't want to bother anyone. Before I knew it I couldn't breathe. Why couldn't I breathe?! Shakily I put the food on my nightstand and I fell onto the floor with a loud thud. My legs were too shaky to hold me. I forced my sobs down and put my hand over my mouth in an attempt to stay quiet. Then there was a knock. I couldn't answer though, my voice wasn't working.

Pov. Change (Remus 1st Person)

      "Deceit..? Are you okay..? I heard a thud..." I said through the door worry was clear in my voice. When all I got was silence in response the feeling in my chest got worse. Something in me was telling me that something was wrong that was the main reason that I even came. So I tried again, "Deceit what's wrong? Are you okay?" Silence. That feeling was screaming at me now. I decided that Deceit's lecture about waiting for him to answer was worth making sure he was okay. When I opened the door my heart broke at the condition Deceit was in. He was leaning against his bed, one hand covering his mouth as he shook and cried. I closed the door then sat in front of Deceit not sure if I could touch him. "Deceit..? What's wrong..?" He just shook his head and curled up tighter. Crap... What do I do? I mean sure he's had panic attacks before but I don't think it's ever been this bad.

     "I-I... I-I c-can-'t br-bre-brea-th..!" That shook me out of my thoughts. I needed to do something and fast. I thought back to when Anxiety had his panic attacks. He did some kind of breathing exercise. What wasn't it something with numbers? Right, 4-7-8.

     "Deceit I'm gonna need you to listen to me closely, okay?" Deceit could only nod in response. "Breath in for four." Deceit tried but choked. "C'mon try again, Dee." He managed to breath in this time but shakely. "Now hold for seven." Deceit held it still shaking. "Now out for eight." Deceit breathed out shakely and I had him repeat this exercise until his breathing was even enough for him to talk. "Dee, can you tell me what happened for you to have this big of a reaction? It's okay if you don't want to talk about it." I reassured softly.

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A/N

HAH! Biggest cliffhanger ever! 

NotReallyButI'mTiredSo... 

Bye!

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