"A competent and self-confident person is incapable of jealousy in anything. Jealousy is invariably a symptom of neurotic insecurity."
~ Robert A. Heinlein
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"Jake, you can do this okay I can take you to your locker and class and at break meet me in the auditorium." Said Rayan while cupping the shorter boys head in his hands and making them face him.
Jacob snuffled as tears slowly streamed down his face. Ray sighed while wiping them off with his thumbs.
"What's the point of me being here, I haven't come to school in what 4 weeks now ? Plus I'm not graduating at this rate anyway. Just leave me at home, I'll be good I promise just please don't make me go back to school !"
"The point is that you still need an education Jake ! You have so much potential to be something amazing, don't let that Chresanto stop you !"
"Whatever."
Rayan reached for his friends hand but Jacob just declined. The older of the two just chuckled at his stubbornness and started off into the big school. While Jacob scurried behind him, he took note of the stares the two were getting and clutches onto his peers hand. This leads to a small smile creeping onto Ray's face.
When the two best friends walked through the halls, everyone stared. Including Star and Roc who couldn't help but feel envy...
"HEY Nique, Don't you go with Ray ?" Asked Roc although he knew the answer.
"Well that what's thought..." mumbled the relativly small girl.
"You know, he doesn't even realise what beautiful girl he has" Roc looked behind him to see where they where, they had stopped at Rayan's locker. He slowly came closer to her causing her to back up against her locker. " I could treat you better."And with that he slowly pressed his lips against hers, people surrounding the two scoffed and moved away in disgust not only because off the "PDA" but because everyone knew that Zonnique had boyfriend who just happened to see the whole thing.
Chres looked behind him and the first person he saw was Ray, his eyebrows where knitted with a hard facial expression. Be didn't know whether he was upset or glad the Star kissed Roc. But when Chresanto shifts his gaze to Jacob he knew his little stunt wasn't worth it. The poor boy couldn't cry , nor could he scream or shout. He just had a distraught expression on in his face. He was done. The four just stared at each other the tension thick. Just as Star was about to justify her actions, the bell for first period rang.
Rayan grabbed Prince's wrist tightly and said "come on." Through clenched teeth, dragging him to his first lesson.
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During the period before lunch hour, Zonnique couldn't focus. All she thought about was how guilty she was about kissing Chresanto. But things just didn't seem to add up. Why did Chresanto suddenly become interested in her in a relationship type of way, why didn't Ray seem as upset as any other boy would of been if their girl cheated on them and lastly why was Jacob appear so so distraught about the kiss. Something was up, and she didn't like it.
Meanwhile in Chresantos class (Spanish) he was catching up on some sleep.
Jacob was standing quite a distance away from Roc. He had that same expression on his face as when he caught him and Star kissing. Chresanto looked around curiously, not sure a exactly where he was or how he got there. Slowly Prince beckoned Chresanto with his finger.
Cautiously, Roc walked over to who he think holds the key to his heart. Jacobs image rapidly started to flicker as tears streamed down his now blurry face. Chres panicked and reached out to him but just before they could make contact, Jacob whispered "I don't wanna leave you, I need you Chres !" Before disappearing for good.
When Chresanto woke up the whole class was staring back at him. He flushed in embarrassment.
"I said can you translate what I just said Mr August or do I need to repeat it for the tenth time.?" Snarled MGomez.
"Oh no it's um-"
Chresanto as literally saved by the bell. He dashed out the classroom after packing his belongings and ran all the way to th other Side of the building. He knocks on the door and waited patiently before entering.
" Hey Ms. J- I mean Indie." Mumbles the confused teen.
Indie gasped and smiled with delight.
"Now, why haven't you come back ? I thought you forgot about me, too busy with Mr r u get eh lover boy ?" Teased the immature woman. But when she noticed the expression on his face she knew this wasn't the time for joking and immediately went into ' concerned teacher mode.'
"What seems to be the problem ?"
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Jacob was sat on the stage pickings his sandwich and just thinking. Thinking about how difficult thing became ever sing Chresanto came into the picture, yes it was always hard but love was even harder.
On the other hand, the voice In his heart have died down. But Jacob wasn't sure whether it was good or bad. He seemed to be too distracted for his mind to conjure up the difference characters. Prince was confused. That was an emotion he felt a lot lately. He had become accustomed to the pounding of his heart and bags under his eyes due to loss of sleep.
Jacob was so into his own thoughts that he didn't notice Ray sit next to him.
When Prince finally snapped out of his thoughts, he took a look at Rayan and smiled. Rayan brushed a stray strand of hair away from the younger boys face. Then they both leaned into a kiss that let every bottled up emotion pour out.
Ray slipped his large hands underneath Jacobs shirt in an attempt to pull it off ." Not here" the fragile boy whispered. These were the only words exchanged after that.
In a hurry, Rayan guided Jacob into the student parking lot and into his car. During the short journey to Rayan's no one spoke. The only things geared was the engine, the soft tapping of Jacobs fingers and the low singing of 'TOPS - Outside'.
When they finally reached the home, the two boys carried on where they had left off but just before Rayan removed Jacobs shirt he questioned how ready Jacob was but was given ok even a short and confirmed answer.
"Yes daddy."
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FanfictionFag.Queer.Disgusting. Words I hear everyday, but not from the people around me, but the voices in my head. I, Jacob Perez have schizophrenia. Schizophrenia, the voices inside me. Schizophrenia, killing me slowly. Schizophrenia, my world is crashing...