Living With The Smith Brothers

One Last GoodBye

ANNIE :POV

We got to the Villa, I changed into a dark black plain track pants and a over sized black hoodie. I packed the little stuff I owned into a small bag,double checked if I packed everything. This whole situation felt like a bad dream that kept on repeating its self every single day but with different scenarios. All I wanted to do was to sleep, I knew that I couldn't run from my problems but ,I couldn't carry on as if nothing ever happened. I just lost both my parents, I don't even know how or what to feel , I feel like I have been betrayed by life how will I live without them, nothing will ever be the same, I can never be the same. I will never allow myself to forget them or be happier without them, lots of thoughts raced through my mind which sent a sharp pain through my brain, I think I'm losing my mind. Is this what grief does to us, I honestly feel like I can't live without them and I will never forgive them for leaving me,"mom, dad, I will never forgive you two for leaving me" I sobbed to myself, I couldn't control the tears from running down my face. Jocelyn came in the room and found me having a mental breakdown "let the tears flow it will get better Annie, you will heal give it time". "That's easy for you to say because ,you didn't lose both you parents in one day, you didn't have to watch the people you loved the most being buried"."Annie I'm really sorry , I really am but, I also lost someone who was like a sister to me and bestfriend ,so I think ,I know how you feel and I'm here for you,I'm all you got". "Promise you won't leave me Jocelyn no matter how hard it gets promise me that" . "Annie,I promise I won't no matter how hard it gets,I will always be by your side sweetie". "So, let's carry the luggage to the car, so we can go home okay". I slowly walked into the bathroom,splashed my face with cold water, tied my hair into a messy bun because, I really didn't want to mess with my curly hair. Jocelyn checked out and as we left the lobby, there was a black Audi A4  waiting to take us to the airport. The airport was loud and chaotic as usual, parents shouting at their kids, how I would give anything to have my mother shout at me ,I thought to myself but she can't , Jocelyn lead the way and I was so shocked to see a private jet appear before my eyes " is this our ride home" I asked looking at her surprised. "Yes Annie this is our ride home, we better get in so can get home and meet the others". What did she mean by meet the others maybe she meant her husband and the little cute child ,I saw a picture of the child in her room back in the Villa. We got into the jet sat.
"Annie do you any questions you want to ask about me" she said looking at me. "Well first what do you and your husband do for a living,do you have children and if you have how many are they" . "I'm a fashion designer and my husband Sean is a Engineer, yes we do have children jus a few harmless children". "No wonder they could afford a private jet these people must be loaded but it doesn't matter how much money they have ,they won't be able to replace my parents no one can,I thought to myself self. "Jocelyn do you believe in guardian angels, do you think my parents are watching over me" I asked looking out the window not wanting to make eye contact because I know, I will end up crying, "Yes ,I believe in Guardian angels, I think they are watching over you,they are always with you ,even if you can't see them they are here watching over you and protecting you" she answer me with her soft smooth voice, holding my hand gently after our conversation I drifted off to sleep.