An open door

Only time will tell.

 Jordyn opens her eyes and sees white. Her eye sight isn't the clearest. But turns out to be the celening in the hostipal. All alone but the beeping sound of the machine thats keeping her alive. She can't feel a thing. She really can't move anything either. Cant tell weither she's aliove or dead. hopeing to be alive but could tell just yet. 

  Jay sets her eyes to a clear view. Takes a good look around. Its just her in her room, her and only her. For now.  She relizes that shes alive. She smiles big and takes a deep breath almost on the verge of screeching with joy, she was happy that she had lived. Only thing was, how? did she have surgery or anything? does she still have her same organs? or was it just a cacustion.  She ly's here staring up at the celing. Happy as ever.  Her mother peeks into the window, seeing if shes awake. She walks in smiling. cry at the same time. " Mom!!!" Jay screeches. She feels the hug from her mom. She knows now that its not a dream its real. " oh honey, first illl tel you eveything later. when we  could talk longer ut for now, how are you feeling? Anything hurt baby?  " Her mother touches the side of her face gently.  Jay smiles and looks into her mothers eyes. " mom. Im fine for now. Can i talk to you and dad please. I need to tell you something before anything happens. " Jay's mother, Debra or deb let a tear slide down her cheek. " yes, ill be right back. i love you. " Deb got up and went to go get her father, Mike.  They walked in together. Dad smiled walking over to jay. " baby, you wanted to talk to us? " jordyn's smile went to a straight face. " ya i did. I know i was dying earlier and you dont have to tell me cause i could tell. something came to me and i know its right. like a near death expericence or something.   The point is, when the doctors were trying to help me and you were freaking out, i knew you were worried. i could tell and im sorry dad but its all your fault. " My mother looked shocked. " lady, why would you say that! its not his fault. and how did you know i was freaking out? " jay looked at her father. " im sorry but it was. listen or i wont say anything. But anyway dad if you didnt make that stupid little comment to the waitress then you and mom wouldn't have gotten into it, and you wouldn't of been mad and the crash wouldn't of happened but it did cause your stupid comment. Not to long ago i was dead. or almost there. and i would of blamed it on you. im sorry but i would have. And how do i know, i know cause i was there. standing right next to you. screaming for you to hear me after a while everything went black and i woke up here. so if not for the doctors i would be dead. i love you both i really do. " Jay's mother was speechless. And so was her father.  Her father nodded his head. " your right. it was my fault. and im sorry. it wont happen again. i love you and ill do anything for you. you know that right? " i tryed giving him a smile.

I closed my eyes. I felt things change. I opened my eyes again. I wasn't where i was. I was back in the gray room with nothing in it.  Just slience. Just me. The feeling of being parted from the people that you love, is like your never going to have help. Its like a maze, you have to find your way and have no help at all. Going around corners and finding yourself at a dead end makes you feel helpless. I sit there, waiting. But for what? the walls change into the hospital room  color. I stand up and i find myself behind my mother and father. " Mom, Dad? Can you hear me please! " I start to cry. I can feel my face start to heat up. I wipe my eyes. I walk over to where i can see my mother's face. I know the looks my mom has. And she has a giving up look in her eyes. A tear rolls down her cheeck just as mine does. I touch her hand gently. Her face lightens up as if she could feel the touch. She takes a deep breath in shock. My father looks at her. " what is it dear? " she opens her mouth but the words wont come out. she sputters the words of my name.  " Jordyn " she shuts her eyes tightly and takes another deep breath. My father just looks at her like shes nuts. " what? jordyn? what about her? honey, tell me " he engolfs her in a hug.  " she- shes touching me. i can feel it. On my left hand. oh dear shes hear with us! " she starts to cry. I look up at her hearing her words. I relize she can feel me. I quickly look at my father. I grab his  wrist hoping he would feel it to. His eyes go wide. slowly looking down at his wrist.  My mother looks at him then his wrist. She cryed aloud. She quickly walked out of the room. he sat down to the closest chair.

Speechless, he sit's there. He rub's his face with his face. He stands up an looks at my body. " I love you" I have never seen my dad tear up But this was a time that i did.