PRINCESS (H.S) - ON PAUSE

1. Whats Family Without Loyalty

"Been a bad bitch way before the crash came"

August 2014:
PRINCESS POV:

Okay I got this. I got this. All you have to do is go out there, smile and be yourself. Okay scratch that not you real self. Not the broken or mean you. The nice you. The rising star you.

This was my first interview or talk show without my brother, King, and I don't know how I would do it. I would feel better if it's just a random person but it's Ellen. Ellen fucking Degeneres. Plus if that wasn't overwhelming enough, one direction would be there.

I was supposed to be called on any minute now. They told me I would go out there. And Ellen would ask me a few questions then I would play a few games with her and one direction. I'm hoping that I won't make a fool out of my self. I'm relatively new to all this and I normally have my brother by my side.

It was finally time when the staff told me I had to start walking out. As I was walking down the hallway that leads to the stage I could hear Ellen announcing my name. I almost felt like turning back. Or throwing up. Maybe both. As I finally made it to the stage the crowd started to cheer so loud I couldn't help but smile. All these people were happy to see me. One direction stoop up as well and Ellen. As I made it to them, I hugged all of them one by one then took a seat. I sat on a single couch while the boys sat on one long couch

I didn't know too much about one direction, other than the fact that they were a popular British boy band. I didn't listen to their music either, it wasn't really my style.

As we sat there waiting for the crowd to settle down, I couldn't help but notice how they were all dressed. All in black pants and a button down dress shirt. While I was dressed in a blue suit that showed all my curves. I had my black hair straight in a ponytail with extensions at the end so it reached right above my bum. I have always been confident about my body. I had the curves in all the right places. Although I had average boobs I did have a bigger than average size butt.

As the crowed finally settles down The blond one who introduced himself as Niall is the first one to speak. "Woah that was a massive applause"

Everyone just laughs while I just smile.

"Alright Princess, how are you?" Ellen asks while everyone directs their attention to me

"I'm doing great, how are you?" I politely smile back.

"I'm good. Now I just want to say how incredible you are"

"Thank you that means a lot" I blush

"Now you and your brother really just came out of no where, and you guys are all I've been hearing about for the past year. Can you tell us a little about that"

"Of course" I pause. "Um I was seventeen and my brother was twenty one when that video went viral of us. We were really just free styling and our friends recorded us and posted it online."

"Yes I see, well now you guys have made it an official song and released a few other songs by yourselves which were hits as well. Your song that first made you guys popular is called Loyalty, why is that"

I hesitated with this answer at first because I didn't really know what to say. "It's called Loyalty because that's really important to us. Like what's family without Loyalty" I smile and the crowd starts to cheer. Ellen and the boys start clapping as well. I can't help but look back  at Harry, the long haired one. Who was smiling as well

From the start he caught my attention. I don't know if it was his personality, his eyes or his amazing smile.

"So you and your brother have sort of matching names but they aren't your actual names. Where did you guys come up with Princess and King"

"Well when we moved into the more poor side of Toronto we came with a lot of more stuff than the other other kids. They would say we used to live like royalty so that's really where the names came from and it kind of just sticked" I laughed. That's not the only reason

After that I got a lot more comfortable and I started to laugh and make jokes with the boys and Ellen. We went on to play never have I ever .

"Never have I ever kissed one of my siblings friends" Ellen says with a smirk. Every one else put up never have.

"Oh come on! That isn't fair!" I laugh. "I hate this game!"

"You and me both" Harry laughs. This game was really only exposing Harry and I so we really didn't like this game.

After the show was finished we went to the back and just really talked. I really enjoyed their company. They were all really nice and a little flirty if I'm being honest. Especially Harry.

When I was about to leave Harry pulls me aside. "So I really enjoyed today and I was wondering if I could have your number" he ask

"Of course here" I smile. I take his phone and type in my number.

"Thanks I'll be sure to text you" he smiles back.

When I make it into the car I feel my phone vibrate.

Harry: Testing 1,2,3

I smile and text back

Me: Harry is that you?

Harry: who else would it be

Me: I don't know, maybe a random person who got my number

Harry: you're in luck that it's yours truly, Harry

Me: lucky me

Harry: You know it

I couldn't help but smile. A sudden feeling washes over me that I haven't felt in a long time. A very long time. And I don't like it. Because I know what happens when I let my emotions get the best of me.So I quickly push it away and remember who I am, and what happened to me. I tried for a very long time to make me feel nothing. To be numb and not feel anything. And I can't let my wall down just because of some British singer that I just met. I will never let myself be controlled by my emotions. Never good ever comes from it. I like being numb, at least I won't feel pain again and I'm okay with that

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