"If this is what love feels like, why does it hurt so much?"
A girl suddenly has all the spotlight on her. Can she stay true to herself? Will she be able to deal with all the stress that comes with being famous? What happens when a guy from a popula...
"I still love him" "I don't want to love him anymore" "I don't want to hurt anymore. Please."
Princess POV:
The rest of the time with Harry's family was like a dream. Even though Harry and I decided to just be friends it was still amazing. His family was wonderful.
And that what it was. A dream. It was like I was normal. I wasn't stressed all the time.
But now it's back to reality. Harry is back on tour and I have a show in Toronto. I'm excited to see some of my old friends and just be treated regularly for little.
The show was great. All my fans were great it truly made me happy. A lot of my old friends came to see the show which was funny because I made them come up on stage with me.
Now I'm in this two story house with pretty much the only people that good "influences" on me which is my brothers friends. Jace and jaden.
Now they are great guys and super chill to hang out with. They are like my other older brothers I just hate how they always take Kings side in everything.
"I called you guys you know" I say while stuffing my face with chips.
"When?" Jace takes a bit of the joint.
"When King was ghosting me but you guys never answered me. What a shock" I laugh.
"Yo you know us we never come between your guys little sibling drama. Plus King is a big boy" jaden states.
"Yeah I know, I just worry about him sometimes"
And I really do. I never know what he's gonna do or what he's thinking. Sometimes I think he'll do one thing but then he does the complete opposite.
"Let's go to the club"
"Yeah let's go I'm trynna get fucked up" jaden adds after Jace.
Now I could say no but i haven't really told. A break in a long time.
"Fuck it, let's go" I smile and get up to get ready.
I decided to put on a red sequence two piece set with my favourite nude heels.
Since I haven't posted in awhile and I want my fans to know I'm alive I decide to post on Instagram. So I handed my phone to Jace and told him to take a picture of me.
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PRINCESS 👑: Night out with the boys🍒
After posting my picture we got in the car and started driving to a night club about 30 minutes away.
Finally this was my time to let loose. My time to finally have fun without stress.
As we make it into the club I can already smell a strong stench of weed and alcohol. Every where I look there is people grinding against each other.
I waste no time I'm getting a drink. I'm here to have fun so alcohol always makes the parties more fun
Everyone is really drunk so I doubt anyone will notice me.
So I dance and laugh with a whole bunch of different people
I loved moments like these. Just dancing care free with a whole bunch of people with no worries.
In this moment I'm not thinking about anything or anybody. I'm not thinking about my music. I'm not thinking about my brother. I'm not thinking about Harry for once in a life time
These days all my thoughts have been clouded with him. I find it horrible. I can already tell I'm getting attached before we even start to officially date.
I'm not trying to shame Harry but he tends to bite off more than he could chew most of the time.
Plus who am I kidding? Girls drop to his feet constantly just by looking at him.
I don't understand why he's so determined to be with me. Is this all a game to him? Of course not who am I kidding this Harry I'm talking about!
Exactly it's Harry. The guy who always wants to spread love and positivity. The guy determined to fix people who can't be fixed.
Me. I can't be fixed. But this last year Harry has been making me feel emotions I almost forgot existed. He made me feel happy again. Alive even. If he knew everything about my past he wouldn't be able to look me in the eye
And I'm forever grateful for him. I like him a lot. But more than that. It's like this really strong feeling. Every time I'm around him I'm instantly happy and my heart pounds so fast it feels like it could burst. I'm all smiley with him and he makes me laugh. Like actually laugh
But I can't commit to Harry. I can't do that when I'm still in love with my dead best friend.
It feels wrong. Like a sin. Cameron was everything to me and moving on doesn't feel right.
He's probably so hurt and angry me. Most likely looking down at me with pure disgust.
I can't do that to him. I can't break his one promise he made with me. "Promise me you'll always be my girl and nobody else's?" He would say while pushing my hair out of my face
"Only if you promise if you'll always be my boy and nobody else's?" I said back. And he did. He did promise me and he full filled his promise. I was his and he was mine until the day he left.
That day we made that promise was amazing. It was the day he finally kissed me. It was a few months before he died.
If I move on with Harry it will be like Cameron meant nothing to me. But that's not true. He was my world.
I can't do that to Harry or Cameron. It wouldn't be fair to either of them.
"Hey you okay?" Jaden asks me while sitting next to me at the bar. I was so zoned out I didn't even realize I stopped dancing and went to sit at the bar.
"Yeah just zoned out a bit" I smile back weakly.
"It's fine to not be okay you know" he says with a knowing look.
"I'm just-I'm just stressed you know? Everything is changing so fast I can't keep up. I hardly see my brother and grandpa and I'm hardly ever home." I say letting out a huge breath
"I know you're stressed but your life is changing for the better, trust me" he rubs my back and smiles softly.
"Hey let's go home, Jace went home with a girl so it's just us" he grabs my hand and leads me out the club.
And once again I leave with the only person that's ever on my mind. Mr Harry Styles.
