Thoughts (this is my personal feelings and maybe some short stories)

Pang

I felt this pang in my chest after I realized he didn't care about my existence. He didn't notice me. He didn't message me. He hasn't talked about me. He noticed my cousin and messaged her the next day after the wedding. "You looked cute, you should've said hi." He talked to her. Did not recognize me? Is this jealousy I'm feeling? I think it is. I can't help it. I don't know how to feel. My first real crush does not care about me. Hasn't bothered to message me. I waited the next day for his message, waiting to see if he noticed me that night at the wedding. He didn't. It took me a very long process to build confidence and it's slowly breaking apart. Why does he make me feel like this? Why is a crush making me feel like my self worth is worth nothing? I am not like this. This is not me.