"Please don't do this. Please don't leave. I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry. I swear on my life that I won't make the same mistake again. Just please...don't leave me. Not now, not ever. Please."
"I'm tired Harry. I'm so tired. I'm trying so hard to make this work and doing my best to make you happy but these last couple of months...you've been so closed off and distant and I'm trying to understand and be patient, but how do you think it felt to sit at home alone while you were touring and partying with friends? I know that the tour is just apart of your job, I don't mind that, but attending the after parties and ignoring my texts and cutting our calls short because you weren't in the mood to talk? What'd I do? Did I even do anything? Or is this just your way of telling me you're not really in love with me anymore? I've tried to communicate all of this to you time and time again but we haven't been able to fix this. I'm tired."
He pulls me into the tightest hug he's ever given me and we fall to our knees, a sobbing mess. He pulls back slightly and pushes the hair sticking to my face back. "It's not you baby. You're ethereal. You're otherworldly. I love you so much. I'm sorry...so fucking sorry. I just-" He takes a deep breath and wipes his eyes; calming himself down slightly before continuing.
"I'm not okay. I'm struggling right now. I'm so tired. I mean...I love what I do more than anything. I love the fans like they're my own family. They've helped me through so much and were there when I felt the loneliest I've ever felt. But I just...I'm in a rut. I feel like I'm losing myself. I feel like I don't deserve any of what I have right now; especially not you. I started convincing myself of how undeserving of everything I was so much just speaking to you killed me. You're everything good in my world. Everything revolves around you; comes back to you. I want to give you all of me. Everything that is me belongs to you. I'm yours. I shouldn't have treated you the way I did, and I should've talked to you. I know better, and I have no excuse for how I acted. I'm sorry"
I stared into his eyes for a while, processing his words and attempting to get myself together. His eyes are so beautiful.
Harry is the most beautiful thing to walk this earth. Looking at him now, seeing the vulnerability in his eyes and hearing it in his voice shakes me down to my very core. He's earth shatteringly gorgeous. This is what I believe angels to look like. But he's also so much more than just that. He's the kindest soul I've ever met. His intentions are so pure; all he wants is to spread and give love. He cares so greatly for those around him, and will drop whatever he's doing just to help whoever may need it. He's my sweet little angel.
"Harry you're the most gorgeous thing to walk this earth" I whispered. He continued to stare at me, and I could visibly see the tension leaving his body. "You're beautiful, inside and out. Your soul is the purest one I've ever come across. You're the epitome of love and happiness. You've got the biggest heart I've ever known anyone to have and you work so hard. So damn hard, all the time, and you're happy to do so. You deserve everything this world has to offer you. You deserve me, just as I deserve you. Saying all this won't automatically change how you're feeling, but I know it makes a difference, no matter how small. I need you. I want you. I'm yours, as you're mine. You know you're going to be okay. You've worked to find yourself once before, and you'll do it again, and I'll be here to help you whenever you need me. I can't lose you libellula"
He smiles at my nickname for him, and in turn I press a gentle kiss to his lips and hold him just as tightly as he held me. "We can do this" he whispers. "We can fix this. We always figure it out don't we?"
"Yes we can. You'll be alright. We'll be alright. Don't blame yourself okay? I'm sorry for the way I approached you about this, but I'm glad I got you to finally talk to me about everything. It's said and done, and we can move on and learn from this. No more keeping each other in the dark, okay?"
"Okay" he whispers, smiling sweetly.
