Time.

chapter one

Im Sarah Cornelia VanDerBilt, Im 15 years old, and I live in the big apple, and this is just my version of a shitty life that I call mine.

August 6th

"Sarah! Sarah! Sarah!" My mom yelled, waking me from my slumber
"What?" I asked as she reached the top of the stairs, walking directly into my room

"Im leaving for work, just thought you should know " she said
My mom is one of the most known broadway producers, and I only see her really early in the morning, or very late at night, so what im saying is that, every day in my life, (including weekends) I'm basically taking care of myself, alone.

Maybe your thinking, wheres your dad, or family? My dad died when I was 7 from a massive drug overdose, and my family...well, both mom and dad where only child, so that leaves me with, no uncles, no aunts, nor cousins.

Grandparents?

My dads mother died during birth, leaving him only with his dad, which died from lung cancer.

My moms dad died from leukemia, which only left me with my moms mother which died from a tragic heart attack, so no, no family.

"Oh how thoughtful of you" I faked smiled "I guess today is that time of a year you act as if you give a fuck about my life, so you think telling me your leaving for work, as if you actually care"

She stared in disbelief, as the words left my mouth, while shaking her head.

"You know what Sarah, I actually do care, but if you're going to be so disrespectful I think I'll save my breath" she said, with her eyes full of rage, and a vein popping from her forehead.

And just like that she left my room.
Some people may think I have anger issues, but i think otherwise, I think I'm just too caring, thats why I don't care anymore, because if I do care, everything will just make me weak so I don't bother to care. I continue with my life leaving everything, and everyone behind, only caring about myself.

I only have one feeling. Selfishness. The only feeling that keeps me going. I prefer people to be out of my life, because then its just like they don't exist, and that just helps not having pressure on me, but if I let them into my life, then I have all that weight on my shoulders.

I actually flunked out of school, because like I said I just didn't care nor I do.

Im supposedly homeschooled, but I don't actually take my lessons, so basically I haven't learned anything new since 7th grade (10th grade now).
To keep me entertained, I like to read, so I read a new book every week, and I also watch a lot of Netflix, and right now my addiction and complete obsession is The Vampire Diaries.

But everything changed when I had too return my favorite book at the library...