PARA SAYO

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Kakatapos Lang ng last subject namin pero Hindi ako nakaramdam ng saya

Yung planong naisip ko kanina nabaliwala lang.

Naglalakad na ako papunta sa gate nang napadaan ako sa section nila. Wala atang tao pero Hindi ko Alam Kung bakit naglakad  pa ako papunta sa pinto siguro dahil gusto ko pa syang Makita kahit papaano ngayong araw.

Pero imbes na sya Lang Ang Makita ko doon, Nakita ko syang kasama si Samantha .. sila lang dalawa

Kinorner nya si Samantha sa wall
Damn .. Ang sakit

Bakit kahit ngayon Lang nya Nakita si Samantha Ang Dali nya itong napansin

Maybe because she's gorgeous and I'm not
Maybe she's intelligent and I'm just below average on their eyes
Maybe she's ideal and I won't be one
Maybe she's just chill and I'm overreacting in showing how I am attracted to him
Or maybe Because I'm not her at all
Nagsisimula na akong isipin na hindi ata talaga siya para sa akin isipin nyo na lang kase within three years of chasing him he never really noticed me, kahit friendship lang Wala eh.

Pinagpatuloy ko na Ang pagalis pero Hindi ko Alam Kung bakit napunta ako sa may koisk at pinagmasdan Ang mga students doon
At napagisip isip Ang mga nangyari ngayong araw
Umasa Lang ba ako kahapon, ano pa nga ba Lily lagi Naman

May be I should accept whats beyond to happen. And maybe at some point my parents would be proud to have me as their daughter.

I don't have any chance of having him any way.

I made up my mind
I should stay away for now,  maybe it's a waste of time but come-on what do you call that three years of chasing and chasing... There's no difference at all.

Siguro nagtataka kayo na marunong akong mag english Ng slight, that's my way of having true friends and true love.. by pretending to be dumb most of the time. It's effective after all I found Mark and Josh, and it's worth it. Maybe in my family they just want me to reach my full potential by treating me that way, but I don't take it negatively and honestly I enjoyed being that way for some reasons.

I found out that no one is attracted for being me as a crazy and dumb ...
I found out that a prince like Silver Lementon wouldn't notice me for being so different among the girls around him

And this time I will accept it even if it hurts so bad.

Kinuha ko Ang phone ko at nagpasyang tawagan na Ang drivern namin, yes we have one or not just one ,

Yeah yeah I'm a great pretender huh, but I think I'm me when I act crazy and dumb... I felt joy
"Hello manong pasundo po" it's my first time na magpasundo I felt down and lazy to walk bahala na Kung sinong makakita sa kotse namin

Thats one of the reason why I prefer to walk because the available car are so catchy .

I pretend to be a normal student
I don't want to have friends just because of all the material things they see in me

Well Mark and Josh are our family friends, their exempted
And so far I don't have any other friends at all

Naoff ko na Ang tawag nang may nagsalita sa likuran

"It's late, what are you still doing here" that voice

I felt a pang on my chest

"Nothing"

Silence

"That ... Panda a while ago is it really for Cloud?" No it's for you but what's the point of saying it anyway

So to get this over with tumayo na ako at hinarap siya

"Yes"
His facial expression became dark

"Are you sure?"
"Yes"

"Okay, let me take you home it's late" blankong Sabi nya

"No thanks"

May sasabihin pa Sana sya Ng Nakita ko na Ang kotse namin .. I don't care if you'll some hint of who I am

There's no use for it anyway

"I gotta go" Yan Lang Ang nasabi ko at tumulak na papunta sa kotse

I hope I'll get over you soon Lementon
Because this time I'm really giving up on fantasizing you .

I closed the door and never look at him again

I accept my defeat on our deal
Whoever I was bound to marry I'll marry him and try to learn how to love him instead

But for the next three months I must prepare myself and move on.

This is Juana Lily Orteza signing off for being crazily inlove with Silver Ace Lementon.