He says he doesn't know if he wants a relationship anymore yet you can't breakup because he doesn't want anyone else to have you.
Do you know what it's like to be so brainwashed by a boy that he makes you feel like the ugliest person and the most beautiful in the room? He can make your days light up and turn black just by a single glance. He can be holding you with tears down his face saying he doesn't want you to go and then not wanna see you for weeks.
He thinks everything you say is a lie but when you accuse him of something it's your fault.
Do you have any idea how much it hurts when he says you can't be friends with certain people because he doesn't like them so you have no friends. He ruins relationships. Makes you cut people off. Yet when it comes to what you want, he could care less about what girl he's talking to that he says is just his friend.
And when he gets mad. He yells. He ignores. He texts that one girl right in front of you because he knows it makes you upset. And when your crying because life is so stressful he walks out of the room because he doesn't wanna deal with it.
And you might be screaming at the screen right now.
JUST LEAVE HIM.
It's not that easy. When your in love with someone, it doesn't matter what they do to you, you always come back. Whether he does or I do. He always comes back. And as much as I hate him. I love every piece of him. And I hate that I love him. But what I hate more is myself, for going through everything he put me through and still staying.
I keep thinking one day he's gonna realize I'm the love of his life and he's gonna take me on a date and show me off to everyone and he's gonna say sorry for all the time he hurt me. But deep down I know I'm not the one he wants.
