You've made it clear that I don't matter to you. Yeah you call every I don't know, month? Just to say hi or some shit then that's it, done, not another call for awhile. You k ow for the past two years I've wanted to see you, but you can't seem to get off your lazy ass to do so. If anything takes you out of your comfort zone you won't do it. You always say that your busy. That you're tired. That you're not feeling well. Now I'm saying that I'm done. I'm done trying to fucking please you! Which is apparently nothing! You don't care what the fuck I do, as long as it doesn't look bad on you. You know, you were given so many chances to come see me? Or even take me with you? But apparently if I can't come to your house why even bother right? It's not like it will hurt me, right!? I don't have feelings I guess. I'm gonna let you know something. You are a sorry excuse for a father. It's obvious that you don't want to spend time with me or you would've done it these last two fucking years. My sister has basically taken the roll of father for you, she acts more like a dad than you ever have. And thing is, she has a family of her own! Yet she still has the time to play the roll of father for her baby fucking sister! You always say that money is tight for you, then why the fuck do you keep buying new cars or trucks or trailers when you can't spend the gas money to see me, your money not child. A child for 9 years now has lived without you in her life! I'm tired of letting you walk all over me, making promises that you can't keep and getting my hopes up for seeing you which hasn't happened in two years! Think I'm exaggerating? Well the last time I actually spent time with you was when I was 15! It was a few weeks before thanksgiving, you didn't see me turn 16 that year. Then year one happened when we hit thanksgiving last year, then I turned 17 and still didn't see you, now I'm 18, we have passed the second thanksgiving marking the second whole year of which I haven't spent time with you. It's obvious that you don't want me in your life when I do want you in mine. I will always want to see you, but I guess it's up to if you want to see me or not huh?
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I sent this to my dad just now... I already regret it but it needs to be said
