separates never better. You know that all too well. I don't even know what to say to you anymore. Your actions speak louder than your nasty words. They stab me. Surely you know that. You know I never meant to hurt you. You know that what I did didn't need to cause the wreckage of a girl you've shaped me out to be. I'm broken. I never told you directly but you've heard it. People whisper. You're the one that taught me that. Maybe that'll make you understand that I've never made you out to be "heartless" as you once explained. I threw myself under the bus so your reputation wasn't hurt and that's still not good enough for you. I try so hard, so hard to keep you afloat. It's never good enough and that's okay. What's not okay is the way you treat me now. Implying I'm many things I'm most definitely not. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy. I made a few wrong turns that hurt us but you made a few wrong turns too. You'll always put the blame on me and I'll take it for you and everyone around us, but here I'm allowed to say how I really feel. WHAT ELSE WAS I MEANT TO DO. You told me you liked your ex girlfriend after we'd been dating for 5 months. You didn't even have the guts to call me. I broke up with you thinking that was the easiest option for you. Not me. Just stop acting tough. Everyone's gonna find out who you truly are eventually. The way I know you. Inside out, every last secret. The reasons I love you. You're making it so hard to fight for you. Sometimes it doesn't feel worth it but deep down I always know it is.
I love you.
