tearless eulogy ➯ zhou g.y. // formula two

extended blurb + foreword

when guan yu meets anthoine's cousin under dire circumstances, he falls down the rabbit hole in a bid to unravel the mystery that is amelié hubert.

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amelié has always been the total opposite of her cousin - he was the sun and she was the dark rain cloud, the light balancing out the dark. alone, she felt powerless, but together, they were unstoppable.

losing her cousin was the biggest punch to the gut she'd ever received. and for the first time in her life, she felt well and truly alone. but for him, she promised that she would get through it and become the person he always believed she was.

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guan yu never expected to lose a friend to the sport he loved. he never expected to attend the funeral of another racer. he never thought that the risk of this sport would rear its ugly head and take away a friend too soon. it was all too raw, hurt too much.

in an attempt to give himself some semblance of closure - and to celebrate the life of the one who had fallen too soon - he promised himself he would attend the wake of a friend.

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they both intended to deal with the pain and grief alone, but at the end, they needed each other.

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wow, finally writing a fic about a f2 driver, and of course i had to make guan yu my first choice, cause i need to uphold the asian pride after all :))

i was inspired by the f2 documentary, chasing the dream, to start this fic. (lil spoiler alert) episode 4 revolves around the events of spa last year, and i cried until i had no tears left. it showed me how much it truly hurt the people who felt the shockwaves firsthand, and that broke my heart. this is my little way of giving myself some form of closure?? i don't know. i felt like writing about the aftermath of this would help me write some of my emotions out, and maybe help you all as well.

this is going to be very different from anything i've ever written - i've already planned the story outline from start to finish (this never happens by the way), and it's only going to be seven chapters long (more or less). i wanted to be able to test my skills and abilities as a writer, and i also didn't want to put too much on my plate.

as always, a massive thank you to my sister, milkmannorris, who has been there through all the tears and the difficulty of this, and who supported this idea from the very beginning when i came up with it on a crazy whim. i love you so much, and thank you for always being there for me in the moments where i've hit rock bottom.

thank you to the rest of you as well, who've stuck with me despite my inactivity and crappy writing and overall not very appealing internet presence. i appreciate you all so much, and i'm grateful that you've given me a platform and a space to be so vulnerable and be myself, and share a little joy and sadness with you in the process.

i think you know the drill - as this fic involves the events of spa 2019, a trigger warning for all of you who feel very strongly about it. i'll also give warnings when necessary - especially when i'm talking about the accident itself.

now, it's time to begin our little journey with amelié and guan yu :)

with all my love,
soph :)