|Aren|
Not long after I met Edrei, we started to slowly hang around each other more and more, she came often to visit the coffee shop every 2 days to talk about anything and everything, if I say so we have become very good friends and it scares me. It scares me because I feel attraction for her, every time she comes I get nervous, I feel all stupid and all bubbly when I'm with her.
I wish she was in a better state of mind to be able to date her the is something about her that makes me feel drawn to her, maybe it's her looks or the way she talks, her little mannerisms, I can't put my finger to it but I want to date her so badly; I know she is carrying a lot of burdens that she is slowly opening about but she is not quite there, I guess us having similar situations happen to us made us bond over our trauma and made it easier to manage knowing we are not alone in this, but it will never be the same, I will never fully know what she is going through I just know I want to be there to help and support her; even if it meant to put my feelings aside... I just want her to be okay.
'Hey, are we still gonna hang out?'
'Sure, you are coming to my house correct?'
'That is correct see you at 6 around that time the key is under the mat if you come by earlier as soon as I close I will head over there' I texted back to her feeling a smile creeping up on me it made me feel so embarrassed acting all giddy, I stared at my phone for a bit going through pass conversations with her, it made me feel happy.
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I rushed to open my door, being a tad late due to a customer call where they detailed everything about their wedding cake hence they said they wanted me specifically to make it. As I was getting my keys from my purse, I smelled food that made my mouth water; rapidly opening the door entering my apartment, and dropping my stuff on my couch I headed to the kitchen where the heavenly smell came from and I saw her, she was whistling and dancing side to side while she mixed what she was cooking, she seemed happy so I leaned and stared at her from the door frame crossing my arms, she looked different than she usually does, she has also gotten healthier, her arms and legs seem to be getting more meat on them, also her skin is more flushed instead of the pale she had when I first met her, it been about a month that I've been hanging out with her and simply being there for each other.
"I know you are there, why are you staring?" Ed said turning to look at me and smile sheepishly.
"You were having so much fun how could I interrupt that," I said smiling back at her and walking towards her to hug her while she kept cooking.
"So what is ya making? "
"Something easy, just a chicken parm," She said while rubbing my side with the arm she was hugging me with.
"Omg you didn't have to do that, I feel like we are married already haha" I looked up to her and smiled.
"Well I wouldn't mind it if it were you," She said so calmly while stirring the sauce, I lightly chuckled.
"I wouldn't either," I said and smiled; we stayed like that for a minute, I let go to hop on the counter arms reach from Ed, she handed me a glass of wine, we silently clinked the glasses and took sips.
"So how you been Ed?" I asked while she started to bread the chicken, You wouldn't believe the delicacies she can make, and honestly, it had been years since I ate home-cooked meals with company, I'm so thankful to have Ed doing this for me.
"I've been okay, looks like I might have an interview," She said smiling and I couldn't help but do the same.
"That's so good! I'm happy for you even if you denied working with me" I playfully pouted.
"If I took your offer you might get tired of seeing me the whole day every day" She joked, then poked my side to make me laugh, god if only you knew how much time I want to spend with you, she might take me for a stalker.
"Yeah right, it's more likely that you'd get tired of me haha" I forced a smile, our constant flirting keeps me on edge since we have been acting like we are dating, well we never have kissed but we do cuddle and talk to each other all day over phone or me going to her place or her to mine, it's been amazing but hurtful at the same time as my feelings for her grow more each day, that I go to sleep thinking about her.
"Stop you know that's not true, id never ever get tired of you," she said while standing in front of me making us be at eye level, I gently move the strands of hair out of her face while smiling, her just following my movements with her eyes until she lays her head on the inside of my palm, god did I want to kiss her, I stared at her we slowly started to approach the other, our lips being centimetres away.
"Hey um..." Ed said looking in my eyes, I felt like being under a spell that I couldn't pull away from.
"ye-eah?" I manage to let out while I wrapped my arms around her neck and play with the hair on her nape, I could tell that was giving her goosebumps.
"Are you okay with this?" She asked while she rested her hands on my thighs rubbing circles slowly with her thumb, her movements were so slow as if she wasn't sure what the limit was.
"I'm okay if you are okay," I said staring at her, yearning for her to lean in and kiss me already, and she did.
The kiss was so gentle I thought we weren't kissing until her tongue gently slid in, then a wave of lust just got into us as we hungrily kissed and touched the other, my heartbeat being erratic, I couldn't believe this was happening or was it happening? I pushed back with barely any breath.
"This... this is real right?" I said while touching her making sure she wouldn't disappear.
"It's real babe, thank goodness it's real," she said licking her bottom lip and that was enough for me to get back into the kiss.
