Forgive Me. (The Vampire Diaries Fan-Fic) - (Being Edited)

To Kill or Not To Kill?

"Issie."

I heard my name but I shook it off and growled slightly in response. I didn't want anything interrupting my feeding session. The thirst for human blood was overpowering me, my non human instinct kicked in and I bit down harder. Bonnie starts to scream but I covered her mouth with my hand before she could make any audible noise. The last thing I needed was Caroline and Elena getting involved.

I could feel Bonnie begin to get weak, her head falling back against the wall, body becoming less resistant to my hold. But this new witch must have some strong willpower to stay alive because I suddenly felt a searing pain in my head again, the pain not as painful as before, but still bad enough to release my grip on her and hold my head in my hands. I growled, my face changing back to normal and tried to speak, to tell her I get the message and I'll leave her alone now.

"Bonnie…." My voice was dry and barely a whisper. I groaned, figuring that this would be lasting a whole lot longer, and I prayed I would at least pass out or something. If this was going to be a constant thing, maybe being a vampire wasn't all that fantastic after all.

The pain suddenly stopped, and I thought she had maybe heard my pathetic cry of need. I sat up and looked over at Bonnie, realising she had passed out, her body limp against the wall like a discarded puppet. Her wrist was  covered in deep red blood, and a small puddle on the floor was gradually gaining in size. It took all I had for me not to go over and kill her there and then. My rational side told me that was a stupid idea, and I would have a lot of explaining to do. I started to panic. What the hell do I do?

I paced backwards and forwards, running my hand through my hair. Elena and Caroline must be curious by now, and soon enough I heard a little knock on the door.

"Issie? Bon? You okay in there?"

"Yeah, we'll be out in a second!" I called back and knelt before Bonnie, checking for a pulse on her neck. It was faint, but still there. I sighed a breath of relief, but I knew that there was still something I had to do to help her.

"Dammit, witch. Now would be a great time for your powers to come in help!" I muttered, searching my head for ideas. I looked down at the pool of scarlet in the floor, the urge to drink it desperate to break through. I took in a deep breath and held it, fighting I couldn't die this way anyway and the smell of the blood wouldn't distract me.

Blood. I looked down at my own wrist. Surely my own blood would help her? I quickly bit down and held it to Bonnie's mouth, silently begging her to drink,tipping her head back slightly so it would drip down her throat.

A small cough and a weak arm pushed my wrist away. I smiled, thanking my vampirism for coming in help finally, and looked at her wrist, seeing the wound slowly begin to heal.

"I'm so sorry Bonnie," I whispered, hoping she would hear, and hoping she would forgive me. I mean, technically it wasn't my fault. She was the one who offered her blood to a vampire.

I grabbed the closest towel I could see, and started to clean the floor, then stuffing the towel at the back of a cupboard, hoping Elena wouldn't notice before I could figure a way to get rid of it.

"Issie," Bonnie said, pulling herself up from the wall, stumbling slightly as she did. I went to her and put my arm around her waist, holding her up.

"Hey, I'm so sor--" I started but she just shook her head at me and smiled a weak smile, but a smile no the less.

"Its okay. You can't help what you are. We live with what we have," she shrugged and sighed. "Just say that I threw up. They'll believe it and won't ask questions, okay?"

I nodded, seemed as good an idea as any. "Okay,"

I unlocked the door and opened it, both Elena and Caroline turning at the noise, a look of word on their faces.

"Bonnie's sick," I announced before either one could say anything. "Let's just get in bed and watch films? I mean, that's what we came here for right?"

They nodded as I helped Bonnie get into bed. She looked better now, and I gave a faint smile. This wasn't how I planned things to go tonight. But I guess a vampire in a room with humans was something that would never turn out okay.

//thought this story needed an update. Sorry it took so long guys! Hope to update more regularly now. Thanks for sticking with this story even though I'm a sucky writer and updater :)