"um well..."
A Day Before
I looks at my bloody underwear as my body shakes "n-no" I sigh and takes off my clothes and runs a bath, I get in the steaming hot water and watch my body turn red from how hot the bath is.
I sigh and play with my razor, I can't tell you what was going through my mind I don't really remember but I do remember my intentions
I roll my razor and take a blade out, I slowly start cutting my inner wrist and start going under water but a few seconds later feel my body get pulled out the water
Present Day
I lay in my hospital bed with this therapist thinking she knows everything when most likely she's been sucking on a fucking silver spoon her whole life, I look at her as she writes my words down
"I know your feeling empty and scared but it was a mistake"
See told you
She thinks she knows theses things and she doesn't know shit
"I think i feel fine and I need to go" I snatch the ig out, jumping from the pain it caused, I get up feeling a little bit light headed and I sigh as I look at the therapist trying to go get the nurse
I quickly put clothes on and run out the hospital, I look around see Fezcos car at the end of the street, I walk up to it seeing the foggy windows and I frown feeling my breathing increases, I got and get a brick from the abandon building beside me and I throw it at the window
"MAYBE YOU CAN CUM IN HER SO SHE CAN GET PREGNANT AND YOU ACTUALLY PROTECT HER"
I got to the side and open the door to see rue on top of fez and I freeze and look at them, they have no clothes on, she on top of him and he looks at me with guilt in his face
"Stay The Hell away from me" I start running to Nates house, I look back seeing that he's trying to go after me but at the point I hope he get ran over by a bus...just don't die
I tear up and knock on the Nates house door but Cal opens the door, I ended things with cal when I got pregnant, I slowly back up but he sighs and walks out and closes the door "Lets go somewhere more private shall we" I gulp as I look back and nod and get in his car
We go to his favorite motel , he takes off my clothes and I sit in the bed as he starts massaging my back as I sit there uncomfortable as fuck I soon see the door open and I look up.
I look at fez and Rue, I freeze and pull away from Cal and looks at all of them "I-its not what you think.." I look at my feet as I stood there next to Cal, Nate's dad, In my underwear and bra,
Rue raises her hands in defeat as Fezco charges at Cal under the impression that Cal forced himself on me when all along I wanted Cal, I stand in front of Cal as if I was protecting him and fez looks at me with hurt in his beautiful green, I kiss Fez and he started to kiss but he pulls away "Ash"
He holds my wrist and looks in my eyes as tears peaks his eyes, I shake my head knowing that if Fez left this room thinking that me and Cal had something going on,
I would never talk to him again, He kisses my forehead and then walks out, my heart drops......My life is Fucking over, I look at Cal and then starts getting dressed, He tries to stop me but I back away and finishes getting dressed,
I walk out and bump into Nate and Madi and I look at them in shock since there was just a whole situation where Nate was Abusing Madi, Cal walks out the room and Nates' eyes widen and he looks at me and then his father
I see Nates' Fist ball up and I move to the side letting Nate Go beat his father up, Madi opens her mouth to say something But I Flip her off, The last time me and Madi had sex she promised not to see Nate ever again
When me and Nate were on the phone Last Night I made him promise me to never see her again and now they're meeting up at fucking motels,
I sigh and start walking away, I walk to the gas station and put a quarter in the public phone and I sigh as I hear my dad pick up the phone and I tear up and start crying "Daddy, I'm at the Motel and Mom is probably home drunk and I need you" My dad lives 55 minutes away but he didn't care how long the drive would be he just wanted to come hold me
I sit at the bus stop thinking about what just had happened "wait fez shouldn't be mad...yes I still love him but he hurt me" I look up at the black Range Rover that pulls up in front of me and I stand up as my dad comes and hugs me tightly
