After the last class of the day ends; I go straight to my locker to grab my bag and lock my locker before I leave.
I walk on the sidewalk until I'm at your row, then I walk to your tree.
I would say our tree, but I don't spend all of my time there, like you do.
"I brought our book!" I tell you.
I open my copy of Bridge to Terabithia and start reading. I read the whole entire book. Bridge to Terabithia was our book. I remember how I had two copies and one of them was mine and one was yours. We would always read to each other, no matter what we were reading. Whether i read to you, you read to me, or we took turns, we always read together. It was one of our things. "Well it's over. I would stay, but I have homework and it's dark out. Plus, I don't want to worry my mom any more than I already do." I shouldn't have said that because now I feel obligated to explain to you. "Ever since, you know, she's worried about my sanity. She thinks it's weird that I come here everyday. It's strange, in her eyes, that I talk to you. She wants me to get over you, but she has always known I wasn't capable of that. Even before we met I loved you." I start crying. "It's been so hard without you. I don't know what to do with myself. You were my only source of happiness. Now I'm just sad all the time. If I'm not sad, I feel empty. I need you back. Nobody knows how you died, one day you were just gone. As if you just slipped away in your sleep. Ever since then, the town has been even more boring. When you died so did the town. I don't think things will ever go back to normal and I don't want them to. Not if you're not here." I wipe my face and get up.
I walk home in the dark.
Feeling alone as usual.
