Dear No One, I Love You

1.5

warning: self cutting it isn't detailed but i need warn you so :) you have been warned

yugyeom had been avoiding jinyoung. he felt like doing things to the younger boy, but he wanted to wait. yugyeom wanted jinyoung to be ready before he had done anything. so yugyeom had decided that he would not touch jinyoung as much.

jinyoung had felt lonely. yugyeom had been avoiding him, and he felt like it had to do with what happened to him. it was understandable when yugyeom and him had to go to school. yugyeom was in university, but when they got home, yugyeom would avoid touching him. but was he just too clingy?

one day, while jinyoung was home alone, he had stayed locked himself in his room. he had gone to look from the envelopes he had kept to write with.

dear the one i love,

i do not know why you are avoiding me. i do not know what i did for you to not want to come close to me. i am sorry if i had hurt you in any way. i am sorry if i am too clingy. i am sorry if  i had hurt you. i am sorry i disgust you.

i know i am disgusting. i never felt more disgusting than this. i must just be a whole wreck. do i smell?

jinyoung felt tears dropping down his cheeks. he had wiped them off his face and placed the pen down.

"its okay jinyoung, its okay," jinyoung had whispered to himself.

jinyoung had gotten himself up from the chair he was sitting on, and moved over to a book case he had gotten when he first moved in. he looked at the books, looking for  one specific book he needed. once he had gotten the one he wanted, he had pulled the book out, looking through the book.

jinyoung walked over to the bed, and took off his sweater.

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yugyeoms heart stung. he could feel jinyoung hurting. he could see jinyoung hurting all over, but he had not wanted the younger to feel bad.

he was sitting in his last class when yugyeom had started feeling pain. it wasnt physical pain, but he could still feel it. yugyeom packed up his things, before sneaking out of his class. Once he was out, yugyeom had ran towards his house. it just didnt feel right.

yugyeom threw his stuff into his room before he knocked on jinyoungs door.

"jinyoung!" yugyeom called for the omega.

when he heard nothing his tried walking in, but it wouldnt budge. yugyeom slamed his whole body weight into the door. one. two. three. it took three times before the door slammed open.

yugyeom saw jinyoung's legs, bleeding. there was a few on his stomach, but mostly on his thighs. yugyeom walked over, and grabbed the item out of jinyoung's hand.

"what are you doing?" yugyeom growled.

"why do you care?" jinyoung leveled his voice.

"oh why do i care?" yugyeom glared at jinyoung.

"yeah, really, all you done this whole week was ignore me-" jinyoung said.

"ignore you? jinyoung you dont understand why i am-"

"do i not really understand?"

"yeah you dont-"

"are you sure i dont? you havent touched me. is it because im actually disgusting"

jinyoung broke down in tears, bringing his legs to his chest.

"jinyoung..." yugyeom softly whispered.

his heart broke. his little omega was feeling like he was disgusting. he was not worth yugyeoms time. yugyeom realized how bad his actions were, especially after what jinyoung had recently done.

"jinyoung," yugyeom tried touching jinyoung.

the smaller pushed the elder away, turning away from him.

"jinyuong, please," yugyeom grabbed jinyoungs wrist.

the older pulled jinyoung into his chest and held him there. jinyoung tried getting out of his grip, but yugyeom held on tight.

"jinyoung, i love you," yugyeom whispered into jinyoungs head.

jinyoung stopped moving, holding still.

"i love you. i love you so much. please, please dont ever think that i would never love you. i love you so much," yugyeom hugged jinyoung tigher.

yugyeom pulled away from jinyoung, looking down at him. the older pushed back the youngers hair back, getting a clear view of his face. yugyeom leaned in and kissed jinyoungs forehead.

"im sorry i made you feel like that," yugyeom frowned, "im sorry i disappointed you as an alpha.. im sorry."

"please dont do that again," jinyoung sniffed.

"i wont. i promise i wont," yugyeom kissed jinyoung on his lips.

its getting spicy in here >.< im kidding i was gonna add smut and they were gonna go at and all but then i just love fluff so much it makes my heart go UWU

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