𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥 - 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐎 𝐂.

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝟒

DAY BEFORE SENTENCE

"i can't believe I'm gonna lose you tomorrow." I arrange my self so I'm under Mars chin.

he stays silent chest rising and falling at its normal pace.

"i don't want to lose you too soon," i swallow trying to force a smile, but instead my lips quiver.

he's quiet but i know he's listening.

"we have so much left to do together. Can you imagine walking me don the isle, us having annoying little kids-" i stop my self from rambling . "we will never now how far are our relationship can take us because your leaving me tomorrow."

Mar starts caressing my back in circles, he's still quiet.

"i don't know how the hell I'm supposed to deal with this." a tear slides down my cheek.

"im so sorry Z."

"its not your fault, its just life being a mother fucker and all." i wipe away my tears and heave a big sigh.

"maybe in our next life i will pick a better choice, and i'll meet you in a better place. Then we can walk down the isle and i can call you my wife."

i close my eyes as he pulls me closer.

"in our next life we can start a life together, we will have kids, a boy and a girl. I want my sons name to be named after your father, and you can name the girl whatever you want." Mar plants a kiss on top of my head.

"i like my dads name anyways, Jahkai ." my voice is thick.

"what our baby girls name gonna be?"

"Mariana, her name should be Mariana." i say crying uncontrollably.

"thats a beautiful name."  he sighs. Mar shifts me so that I'm laying on my back, and he props his elbows above me.

"dont cry," he murmurs against my skin."in another life." he says giving a peck on my nose.

"promise?" i say holding my pinkie out.

Mar hooks his pinkie around mine, " I  promise."

he looks into my eyes, and then at my lips. I quickly kiss him and we switch our positions. I'm on top and he's under me. I let my hands slide under his shirt, and then his pants.

"Zara-"

"shh," i cut him off, "don't say anything."

i peel off the hoodie I'm wearing, its the blue one he gave me.i toss it onto the floor with my shirt. i lift myself off of him and unbutton my jeans, kicking them aside. Mar loops his fingers under the sides hol my panties slipping them off.

i slip my hands under his boxers, and i watch his eyes drift shut.

"lets not rush this." he says laying his hand over mine. i trace a finger over his jawline and kiss him. "Zara, its gonna be okay," he says stroking my hair.

i could feel tears coming in and i pressure myself to hold them back. i slowly go up and down and whisper in his ear, " our last time."  i kiss his neck and he moves it.

"don't keep reminding yourself that its our last time. he moves slowly in and out of me, bracing his hands against my hip bone, steadying me as the speed picks up. I gasp and dig my nails into his biceps to keep my moans in.

"Z, fuck." Mar grunts. sliding his hands down to my ass." i don't want this to be our last time." i whimper as he pumps inside me, stoking with urgency.

"i don't want you to for get this,"

"i don't want you to forget any of this."

chills run down my spine.